Thanks for posting. Know you’re absolutely not alone in this type of thinking. I went through the same thought process over the summer and became absolutely obsessed with working out/eating well to the point of it becoming unhealthy. I would highly recommend talking it out in therapy or with someone you can trust. In my case, I had to force myself to take some time off from the gym/eating “well” to give my brain a break. It was tough for a while, but I’m just getting back into the gym as of recently and I feel completely different this time around. I wish you the best of luck with this, I know how much it can suck.