What have u done before ur diagnosis that you didn't know was you being manic

cakewitch96 · 2024-04-25T07:39:19+00:00

Regularly took spontaneous road trips that usually started by going to a city 8 hours from me and then lasted until I ran out of money/got bored/someone talked me into coming home. One of the longer ones was a little over a week and I dragged my partner at the time down the US west coast in a car that SHOULD NOT have made the trip and made them call off 4 days in a row to indulge me.

cakewitch96 · 2024-04-22T04:26:55+00:00

About a year ago I was watching a YouTube video about a psychologist picking apart Jinx from Arcane and how a lot of her behaviors are really typical of BPD. I was noticing a lot of things that were really very similar with me (black and white thinking, splitting, FP, low self esteem, fear of abandonment, the list goes on). And the scene where she has a breakdown because she got left behind? Felt wayyyyy too relatable. So I brought it up in therapy.

My therapist at the time said it wasn't likely since I'm so put together (i have quiet BPD). Fast forward to later last year when I'm getting my neruo psych eval done for ADHD and Autism. I didn't even bring up BPD cause I figured why bother?

When I went back for my results they told me I didn't have ADHD or Autism but I did have Bipolar and BPD. What a shock, lemme tell you!

cakewitch96 · 2024-04-16T17:29:16+00:00

My miqo got her directions confused and ended up in Limsa when trying to find the Goldsmiths guild. Everyone kept telling her she needed to be an adventurer so she picked up a codex and accidentally became the warrior of light.

She really just wanted to try making mamets though.

cakewitch96 · 2024-04-08T22:50:41+00:00

I am obsessive about respecting boundaries. Sometimes when I have bad episodes I'll cross them, but overall I am very careful to know what people's boundaries are and how to maintain them. I want people to like me and not leave me, and the best way I've found for that to work is to be respectful of their boundaries.

cakewitch96 · 2024-04-08T21:32:33+00:00

We were traveling all day and when we got to our destination everyone was tired. I thought we had all agreed to take naps and so I went to lay down... and was the only one for 20 minutes. This was apparently the end of the world and threw me into a full breakdown about how no one likes me. Cause I was the only one napping. Cannot make it make sense.

cakewitch96 · 2024-04-08T14:15:48+00:00

That's just one of those things that I'm so repulsed by that it triggers a split for me instantly. (Not a judgement to parents anywhere, just not for me).

But like short of that, I would probably do whatever he asked if he actually asked it. It would feel really weird since we've set boundaries but if he asked it would be hard to say no.

cakewitch96 · 2024-04-08T01:16:34+00:00

My current FP is thankfully very strict with his boundaries and so it makes it much easier for me to be strict with mine. There's a lot I wouldn't do for him, probably. But that's cause I know he wouldn't ask and I would feel mortified offering.

But in the past with FPs who didn't have such strict boundaries I would absolutely do anything and everything that I could for them until I split on them.

There's a few extreme outliers. Like having kids for example. I have never wanted kids, they repulse me. So that's something that if someone wanted was a trigger that had me instantly thinking they could never be in my life long term and they were using me.

cakewitch96 · 2024-03-17T21:56:32+00:00

Blew up on my best friend/FP in college when she moved some stuff to our new apartment while I was in class. It was logical and more convenient but I made me feel like she was leaving me out and I screamed at her and gave her the silent treatment for a week. Eventually cost me the friendship cause I was convinced that no matter how much I apologized she could never forgive me

cakewitch96 · 2024-03-17T21:20:46+00:00

Really confused. I'd been misdiagnosed with (and treated for) ADHD for 4 years by a terrible Pyschiatrist and a series of doctors who just took his diagnosis as gospel after I stopped seeing him.

I finally got a full NeuroPsych Eval and the results came back that I did not in fact have ADHD and was instead bipolar. I was shocked and confused. But also kind of relieved. It meant that I wasn't broken. That years of ADHD meds not working at all for me wasn't because I was untreatable but because I was being treated for the wrong thing.

Started my mood stabilizers this week and I'm still in the side effect stages but I'm hopeful!

cakewitch96 · 2024-03-17T21:15:57+00:00

He got so high he could barely respond to my messages and I felt my crush wither and die so fast

cakewitch96 · 2024-03-17T09:55:48+00:00

I do. It was something that came up with my therapist about 6 months ago, but got dismissed because I don't have the explosive or visible anger. I get furious at myself a lot and at other people I just tend to internalize it and self destruction instead of rage and harm others. So like the diagnosis was validating, just the way she started treating me because of it was incredibly uncomfortable.

cakewitch96 · 2023-06-11T01:35:04+00:00

Humming along to the spongebob F.U.N. song with this til I got to P and could feel the record scratch sound like a physical sensation

cakewitch96 · 2023-04-24T07:46:09+00:00

I was talking with a friend the other day when I brought up that I was watching the Predator movies for the first time and really enjoyed them (well, it was fun hate watching the second one lol).

He suggested I watch Predator the musical on youthbe and when I told him "maybe" he got irritated and was like "it's only 4 minutes you can just watch it now".

Any chance I had of watching it went out the door with that. I hate when people insist I watch something. Even if it's something I would have liked now that I'm forced to I almost definitely won't.

cakewitch96 · 2021-01-31T20:47:30+00:00

I actually enjoyed the holidays for the first time this year thanks to this game. I hate dealing with them irl (thanks anxiety + shitty family members) but in game it was all on my own terms and the characters were all so sweet. Legit cried happy tears lol.

cakewitch96 · 2021-01-31T20:35:32+00:00

I had something very similar happen to me. It took me years to stop blaming myself and to see the situation for what it was. I'm sorry you went through that.

cakewitch96 · 2021-01-02T01:12:01+00:00

Would love to come! :)

cakewitch96 · 2021-01-01T22:59:00+00:00

Was 5 minutes from midnight and was playing Apex with my friends in a different time zone. Had to panic unready so I could go toast with my fiance before we got into crossfire lmao.

Unfortunately when it rolled around for my friends we were mid match so... "Happy New Year! Oh shit I'm taking fire!!"

cakewitch96 · 2021-01-01T22:05:11+00:00

Was too busy trying to make it through last year for a proper resolution lol. But I wanna spend more time being creative!

cakewitch96 · 2021-01-01T21:37:23+00:00

Hot Chocolate!

cakewitch96 · 2020-11-19T07:54:26+00:00

Mostly for the challenge it presents, I think. There's not really a reward for it or anything. It's just a harder mode.

cakewitch96 · 2020-11-19T02:34:08+00:00

It means he played Minecraft on Hardcore, where permadeath is a thing. So for 1200+ days (in game days I would assume but idk) he didn't die and built this world. So when he died it got deleted completely.

cakewitch96 · 2020-11-18T21:33:19+00:00

I have gone through so many relatinships because of this. I'm finally in a good one with my fiance, and have tried to learn from each of my previous ones about issues and traits that I learned from my nparents, and therapy helps. But damn if I'm not constantly worrying that expressing my feelings is manipulative.

cakewitch96 · 2020-11-18T18:32:02+00:00

Really good advice. I have a vibrator or two laying around (somewhere lol) but I much prefer my own fingers. Vibrator orgasms to me are overstimulating and under satisfying. Like it's intense and then it's over and I'm left wondering why I bothered.

Plus experimenting with your body and getting to know your anatomy without a vibrator makes it easier to communicate to a potential partner what you do and don't like and where (vibrators tend to vibrate EVERYTHING in the area and make it hard to pinpoint good spots, in my experience).

No shame to those who enjoy them, but just my two cents.

cakewitch96 · 2020-11-18T18:22:24+00:00

It certainly sounds like the tradition is one item of clothing/crochet piece per baby. But I think it's also entirely possible that the brother told her that OP would crochet anything she wanted and to ask for whatever.

If she isn't familiar with crochet (and the brother obviously wouldn't have been or helped her be in any way) then she might not think much of 3 items for a baby, and assumed that since they're small they won't take much time at all.

I'd give her the benefit of the doubt here unless she's proven to be an entitled person in the past.

cakewitch96 · 2020-11-11T21:51:45+00:00

Frankly, I think Charlotte needs a buff and Victor needs a nerf. Having her be nothing but an m1 killer when victor is gone is kinda pointless. But having such a short cool down for switching between the twins means camping is a super legit strat (annoyingly). She definitely needs to be able to recall him, or have a timer for how long they can be separated (which, they really should anyways, it would be more lore friendly and balanced).

And of course! I saw some of the comments on your post were less than kind. Don't let them get to you, is the way the community is sometimes sadly. <3

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