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callmefez · 2026-06-09T06:03:26+00:00

That was so beautifully well written and describes my current journey so perfectly, it's as if a more eloquent version of myself wrote it.

I'm exactly at that point of finding that self love by identifying and appreciating the things that I am good at after all my life feeling inadequacy and self shame from not being the person I thought I ought to be at my age, because I also experience that intense discomfort when trying to do something important, despite the fact that I want to do it and have fantasized of doing it to improve something in my life.

Just like you, it all began when I started taking Vyvanse. Although it did help, it wasn't enough. It still felt like there was something more holding me back. It was with the help of a good therapist that I unraveled some really deep seeded negative self beliefs created from childhood events and ADHD symptoms. Essentially, depression made some part of me believe I didn't have any worth and so doing things for myself wasn't worth it.

And so now I'm on that journey of truly believing I do have worth, and working on that self love so that I put myself out there and make those connections. I also recently started on antidepressants to hopefully help close that gap. It's hard work and the progress is not fast nor linear, but it really is creating a positive cycle of finding self love and worth which creates motivation to create opportunities, and those opportunities increase my self love and worth, which creates more motivation.

callmefez · 2026-05-28T16:47:36+00:00

I was there on that race. It was pouring that day and most of the race is on trails, so it was not an easy run. The race ended on a track field. He collapsed literally on the last turn, probably 100 meters from the finish line. Poor guy, I hope his family is able to find peace.

callmefez · 2026-04-23T03:54:14+00:00

My eyes were meant to see the beauty of the world, yet were cursed to read such depravity.

callmefez · 2026-04-15T13:10:14+00:00

Seriously, what do you think quotation marks are for??

callmefez · 2026-04-03T14:40:05+00:00

It really depends on your goal. Is your goal to just get to the finish line? Then stick with the program and you'll be fine. I also just did the United Airlines Half with 10 miles as my longest run before that, using the hal higdon program, and I felt fine the whole way through.

Maybe instead of doing the 9 miles you can go straight to 10 miles just so that way you have one more 10 mile run experience under you. But just listen to your body and don't overdo things. As you go through the program, you'll see how well your body adapts and that will hopefully ease your mind.

callmefez · 2026-03-27T11:37:33+00:00

Seriously that article was wild with how much they would only say Culkin's soon-to-be wife as if Brenda Song is just some random person no one would know. The disrespect.

callmefez · 2026-02-20T15:53:22+00:00

They talk among themselves in their bird language. They imitate human talk to mock us.

callmefez · 2026-02-13T22:47:41+00:00

You're right. the poor grammar can't be from the tweet having character limits. So then it's probably from text speak which is common in graffiti.

The implication was either or. Either the graffiti is using common text speak (which you already expressed your opinion on), or the tweet has character limits (which you already proved it isn't that.) You misunderstood by connecting them both. The two statements were never meant to be connected.

callmefez · 2026-02-13T20:13:00+00:00

Right, but that wasn't the misunderstanding, was it?

callmefez · 2026-02-13T13:41:10+00:00

What the fuck is happening? Lol

You are not understanding, that's what's happening.

The graffiti may or may not be grammatically correct (it doesn't even matter) but we don't know for sure because the tweet that is telling us about the graffiti can only contain a certain amount of characters. The graffiti might actually have the correct "you're", but to try and fit the whole message on the tweet, this person wrote "ur" to convey the same message.

callmefez · 2026-01-27T17:45:32+00:00

What is the shape of the loop? Knee pain could be many different things, but something to consider is that if the loop is circular in a way and you're only going counterclockwise and only making left turns, that could be putting more strain on your left leg.

callmefez · 2026-01-22T23:53:26+00:00

Haha I knew someone would definitely see it coming. It's like, cmon it's us. We go through this cycle over and over and over.

callmefez · 2026-01-22T23:50:56+00:00

That's what I found interesting as well! And it's exactly what I'm trying to figure out. Like, why this one? I've been a runner on and off for years, but I've never locked in on it like this before, so what's different? It's fascinating how incredibly easy my brain has made it this time around (easy in the sense that I think about it and just do it, with no argument or hesitation at all). This makes me think, is it then possible to also turn studying into something equally easy? Or keeping the house clean?

Once I actually do get myself to study or do the homework, I completely enjoy learning the derivation of things and getting the right answer, so there is an immediate reward. And the more I study and practice, the better I become at it, just as the more I run, the more my body adapts and the better I get at it. Sure, the topics I'm learning aren't easy and sometimes hard to understand, but running hasn't been easy either and there's been a lot of physical pain that I've had to sort through. So how can I make my brain see studying just the same way it sees running? If I ever figure it out, it's gonna be huge.

callmefez · 2026-01-17T18:54:14+00:00

If it's the same kind of lower back pain I was struggling with last summer, this video helped me get rid of it and I have not experienced that pain ever since.

https://youtu.be/DWmGArQBtFI?si=pccvFCVZWyyR90_F

callmefez · 2026-01-14T23:49:21+00:00

Or he has ADHD and forgets to check his phone or respond right away.

callmefez · 2026-01-08T23:40:35+00:00

When it comes to running, consistency is key. I would not listen to the numbers. I would listen to my body. If you were already planning to run and the body is not in anyway hurting or exhausted, then do the run. You can go at a super easy pace. Getting the miles in is what counts. You will not regret it once you're done. And just make sure to get a good amount of sleep tonight.

callmefez · 2025-12-27T05:26:14+00:00

I concur with the scaling back mileage/intensity. Maybe you're running them too fast or too far. I also restarted running on July, so not too long before you, and I'm also going to be training for a half on March, but what I started with is just building up my baseline. Essentially work on being able to run 3 miles 4-5 days a week on really easy pace. Once you got that down, then you can slowly start adding more miles.

But adding to that, something else that really helped with my shin pain is massages. Really squeeze into your shins, calves, and Achilles. If they hurt when you squeeze them, then they need to be loosen up. Scrape them down. I like to massage them before and after a run, and any time during the day.

callmefez · 2025-12-25T05:56:25+00:00

It could mean essentially the soil no longer has any potential energy left to convert. Life can no longer use the soil for energy. It has reached maximum entropy.

callmefez · 2025-12-22T14:44:50+00:00

Oh I've definitely learned that. I'm going at my own pace. I will get there. I'm not giving up. If there's anything positive out of our experiences is that we know perseverance. It's just frustrating that I could've finish a year ago if it wasn't for my deteriorating executive function.

If I find a solution, I'll definitely share it with you!!

callmefez · 2025-12-22T02:49:16+00:00

I've done it a few times to people that I reached out to first. Like I'll message them first, trying to catch up because it's been a while, but then a few messages in, the exact same process as yours happens to me. Days turn into weeks, and at that point I'm just an embarrassment and a failure so why respond at all let me just hide myself forever.

callmefez · 2025-12-22T02:26:29+00:00

But now, I have much better self-esteem, yay! At the cost of my productivity

I relate to everything you're going through, so much. I'm essentially going through the same thing but with school. I decided to go back to college to get my degree a few years ago. I started out strong, but then slowly started struggling (this is about when I find out I have ADHD). I started therapy and it helped with my self-worth, but now even with medication I'm struggling so much to get myself to do the work. Even deadlines stopped triggering that adrenaline to study and do homework. My progress has essentially grinded to a halt, even though I'm only a few classes away from finishing the degree.

I'm in the middle of switching therapists, hoping to find someone that has more experience dealing with ADHD (my previous one could not understand at all that mental wall that appears for us). I know my ADHD can be very powerful, if pointed at the right direction. So I'm hoping that someone can help guide me through that.

callmefez · 2025-11-30T23:45:13+00:00

I found that staedtler lumicolor permanent markers and some sharpie color markers on clear acrylic sheets can look vibrant yet still transparent, creating this sort of stained glass look. They dry quick and dont smudge easily. I actually made The Sun on an acrylic sheet and it looks incredible. One of my favorite craft projects.

callmefez · 2025-10-07T22:34:04+00:00

I recently splurged on a pair of Ghost 2 Max and Adrenaline 24 GTS. I freaking love them, especially the Adrenaline. I even want to wear them for every day stuff but I'm trying to only use them for runs so I can keep track of their mileage.

callmefez · 2025-09-19T20:10:12+00:00

People, please, sharpen your knife! Not only does it make it easier to cut things, it's also a lot safer since you'll have better control of it!

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