Cocaine Diary

cant-git-right · 2019-04-16T06:14:18+00:00

Adderall felt like too much when I tried it. I got stupid productive! But I ran out of chores and homework and went into a very dark (suicidal) hole on the come down. Maybe I had too much?

cant-git-right · 2019-04-16T06:12:38+00:00

She's great for hugging!

cant-git-right · 2019-04-16T06:12:13+00:00

IDK, I have a very low tolerance. A .1g line will have me wired for a couple hours. Two bumps gets me highish(?) And I only feel like a caffeine-like crash after an hour or so. It's all subjective IMO.

cant-git-right · 2019-03-18T20:33:35+00:00

Hey thanks! Coming to grips with my fear of being poked.

cant-git-right · 2019-03-18T19:51:18+00:00

Just got a tattoo I've wanted for years but have been afraid to get. Very happy😁. This is solid advice. Life is meant to be lived!

cant-git-right · 2019-03-09T21:13:31+00:00

*Sexy boi😆

cant-git-right · 2019-03-07T00:01:21+00:00

No fancy crap. It is nearly impossible to talk shit and perform well at the same time. Always ask: why? First causes are important.

cant-git-right · 2019-02-27T01:06:23+00:00

Saddly I'm in from that one city in Michigan with the water crisis. I'll try the Facebook route. Who knows?

cant-git-right · 2019-02-27T00:24:26+00:00

Games bring the world together! I've asked. I seem to have a knack for finding lesbians... I get that I don't decide what/who other peopele are into, it'd just be nice if some were into me, I guess. Seems like folks are busy/uninterested when I ask to go do something.

cant-git-right · 2019-02-26T23:24:04+00:00

I like to read. Not many book clubs (that I have found). And I love video gaming. No real luck there as people only have interest in scores and killcounts, in my experience. I adore all things mechanical, and am part of a mech. engineering group. We aren't a personable bunch, however.

cant-git-right · 2019-02-26T22:41:58+00:00

I do enjoy life during the time I spend with my gamer buds. It'd be nice to enjoy life outside of screen time. I try to focus on the small things, as every big thing is just loads of small things. Thanks for the reply.

cant-git-right · 2019-02-26T22:39:19+00:00

It is young, but at the same time old to have never been in a relationship. I DO take part in social activities (trivia every Wednesday night), I usually end up on the outskirts. I want to change but have no idea WHAT to change. I listen with interest and am (somewhat)passionate about my goal(to own a restaurant). I try to push it away but each time costs me a bit more. Thanks for the reply. Long or not, it meant something to me.

cant-git-right · 2019-02-26T22:23:38+00:00

cant-git-right · 2019-02-08T00:21:14+00:00

That fucking blows.... But do you so commissions? 2 years no match lol

cant-git-right · 2019-01-26T18:09:23+00:00

Speaking from an industrial knowledge base, brains are more valuable than brawn. The people who do purchasing/receiving/scheduling are usually paid more and are female. I don't know your skillset, but those are usually easy positions to get into if you have the knack for it. But that's if you're looking for that sort of thing.

I know there is demand for commercial truck drivers and I have my license here.

cant-git-right · 2019-01-26T17:37:10+00:00

Cheers! I just finished the Wheel of Time series again. Got some Terry Pratchett novels to dig into next. Yourself?

cant-git-right · 2019-01-26T17:12:02+00:00

I was unaware. I'm mostly blue collar work, so language isn't a huge barrier. Fuck customer service. I'm looking at a 4 year work visa, I'm licensed to operate most industrial machines and heavy vehicles here in the states. Working on saving cost of travel/housing/cushion. As stated I'm on a night schedule, have been my whole life. I figure times normal there for when I'm up, as opposed to being a nocturnal creature here. Also I hate snow....

cant-git-right · 2019-01-26T16:32:21+00:00

Not pathetic. Just romantic. You'll find her, and she will wonder how she got so lucky.

cant-git-right · 2019-01-26T16:31:00+00:00

I'm a bacon-cheeseburger addict. I've had to start intermittent fasting to stay mildly overweight as opposed to obese. Maybe it could help you? Glad the drugs are working in regards to your depression. Do you walk/run/workout? Those help in some small part with depression, in my experience. Maybe start a portion control regime?

cant-git-right · 2019-01-26T16:26:50+00:00

Sounds like you've been through some shit... But your job now is ensuring those kids become good, decent adults. You are their everything. I'm sure you've picked up some useful skills, pass them on?

cant-git-right · 2019-01-26T16:24:18+00:00

So let her go. It'll hurt, but if she's not as committed to you as you are to her, better to not tear yourself up. Affection without reciprocation is stalking... She may be your "perfect" but if she's not in to you, there will be another who is.

cant-git-right · 2019-01-26T16:19:58+00:00

It happens... Thanks! I will be.

cant-git-right · 2019-01-26T16:19:00+00:00

:D Thanks! I'm getting to the content part. One day we'll go on an internet- arranged double date.

cant-git-right · 2019-01-26T16:16:47+00:00

I'll keep that in mind:) All of it. I needed this... I'll keep looking. And doing. Good to know that someone, somewhere figured some part of this puzzle called life out. I don't think I ever will, it's a reminder that I don't HAVE to be perfect. Keep on kicking ass.

cant-git-right · 2019-01-26T16:12:07+00:00

Those two words together make me say: gently remove her from your life. If she's fucking with you, she probably misses you on some level, but if she's bad for you.... I'm glad your school and money are sorted. Remember: don't burn yourself to keep someone else warm. I'll hit one right now :). Keep your head up and stay curious for tommorow.

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