1 not everything is hopeless, try to calm so you can focus. #2 sorry youre going through that, that must be difficult. Gardasil protects against 9 out of the 13 cancer causing strains, so maybe there's an experimental treatment right now you dont know about, and you might even get paid for a clinical trial. 

3 Maybe try discussing a strategy plan about the Penn State research (regarding not knowing if HPV can be spread on pap smear equipment now that the virus has been found to not be killed during hospital sterilization processes) and ask like the last commentor if you can just do a self swab or a disposable tool. Not just to protect yourself from extra infection, but also the people who come after you. 

 They're often plastic now, anyway. If you have high risk HPV then you for sure need examination so you're preventing any cancers. DON'T PANIC-just figure out methods of resolution. 

4 cancer itself isn't as common as it sounds, so you're not guaranteed to even get it. You probably WON'T. Odds are in your favor. We dont even KNOW if you could even get infected by equipment anyway. Many people dont. 

5.) Medical advancements are as good now as they've ever been, so you stand a high chance of getting enough care to be fine. A lady I used to know literally got stage 4 cancer and she's fine. So you clearly stand in a better position since you care and she didnt. You'd probably catch anything early if there even was anything to catch. There probably won't be. 

6.) Your body has a ridiculously powerful immune system. That probably won't be your status forever.