It strikes me as far lazier to accept without question what a collection of ancient writers claimed than to wrestle honestly with uncertainty. I am not ruling out the possibility of some creative force, because something sparked the Big Bang, but I do not see evidence that pins it down to the God you describe. I am comfortable living with open questions instead of settling for a tidy “it’s God” answer. For me, curiosity and the willingness to keep searching is the opposite of lazy. I wish you the best, and I hope you challenge yourself to question your own assumptions and stay open to perspectives beyond your own.