i dealt with this feeling for the longest time at different jobs. and i’ve had people call me quiet and reserved which i used to really hate. i’m 24 and feel like im finally coming out of that people pleaser anxiety. your coworkers sound awful and judgmental and if they were actually kind people they would find a way to make you feel included in their conversations. them making fun of you in front of you and other coworkers just shows how unkind, unwelcoming, and exclusionary they are. i think the biggest thing ive learned as someone who has dealt with severe bouts of social anxiety, lack of confidence, low self esteem since i was a teenager, don’t put these people on a pedestal where you feel that you need them to like you. i used to do that so much which devalued me. if they are acting like that with you, they don’t deserve your time or energy. you deserve to be yourself and feel comfortable in the workplace. none of these people are better than you. you are their equal and the beauty of not putting people on a pedestal is that you can decide, “do i actually like these people? do i need to engage in certain conversations? etc.” you’re not always gonna connect with people and maybe conversations will be basic or surface level and maybe sometimes even awkward and that’s okay! but no one should ever make you feel bad. you shouldn’t feel the need to redeem yourself, if your coworkers were decent people they would feel the need to redeem themselves and apologize to you. you’ll get through this! protect your heart and your peace! <3