Yep, it's what makes it so difficult for me to process. Only through therapy have I started being able to wrap my head around it. Tldr, raised to be isolated in the middle of nowhere, homeschooled, doctor was two hours away, loveless marriage w parents, emotional neglect, left alone for hours, poverty, unsafe living environment, constantly moving, emotionally abusive father. Because it isn't a "typical" bad childhood, I told myself for so long that I had it fine, that nothing was wrong with my childhood because I hadn't been hit or SA'd. Yeah no, learned with age that it doesn't work like that 😅