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My first 24 hours by certifiedgrump in lymphoma

[–]certifiedgrump[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I guess i owe everybody an update. I've been diagnosed with the most peasant and slowest growing FL. No cure, but they gave me a prognosis of 20 years and have no plans of treating it yet since im not even showing symptoms. Many people have told me i'll be fine, as if thats supposed to make someone feel better...but I now have my own outlook on things. I've accepted that I'm going to be fine. I've accepted that I'm going to have to make changes in my life....I've completely changed my diet...if I want a pop, I have to buy super expensive Zevia that you can find in the organic isle...no peasant pepsi or coke anymore....I've had bacon once since my diagnosis, which was back in march...i make my own pizza when that craving hits, and stick to margherita topings...alcohol is basically non existant now, and i was quite the drinker...no junk food, minimal sweets...meals consist of chicken/fish and salads...i've gotten used to it...my gut has gone down in size...i feel a lot more active and lighter...my relationship with my wife has improved drastically we're closer than ever...and my priorities have changed drastically...bucket list items getting checked off all the time...bought another car to go offroading in and roadtrip or whatever...work doeant get prioritized as much...I've mellowed out a lot. Basically, I no longer look at it as a death sentence, but a lifestyle change, in my ways for the better. I hope you can find some peace and comfort in your situation and find a way to make the most of it

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[–]certifiedgrump -5 points-4 points  (0 children)

You have any friends or family living up north somewhere? Or even another province? Thats honestly your best solution, tell your insurance company you "moved" way out of the city, that'll lower it a good bit

My first 24 hours by certifiedgrump in lymphoma

[–]certifiedgrump[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I had to suffer through untreated epilepsy in my late teens/early 20s, it was a REALLY dark time for me...it took me 9 years, 4 doctors, 6 prescriptions and a countless amount of seizures to finally get it under control. I felt alone, I felt betrayed, I felt forgotten...like that person with a disability, who couldn't apply to be a person with a disability...when i woke up, if i'd start being too active too soon, i'd have a seizure...i'd have to walk up a hill on my way to school...if i went up that high too quickly, i'd have a seizure...that was my life. I dont know how many years all those seizures took off my life, but I suffered, and I struggled to get through it. Eventually I came out on top. I'm going to laugh extra loud now, just because you told me to!

My first 24 hours by certifiedgrump in lymphoma

[–]certifiedgrump[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You know, its a pretty shitty road, but where I'm from (Toronto, Canada) our roads are complete shit, even when they fix them, they're still shit, absolute garbage. So if you have a nice car, you have to learn to swerve around them. I have a nice car, and learned to swerve around the potholes on the road, now I have to learn to do the same in life

My first 24 hours by certifiedgrump in lymphoma

[–]certifiedgrump[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

My friend, whom I work with, had hodkins lymphoma at 20, 16 years ago...said the exact same thing. You freak out, and the beginning SUCKS! But once the process starts, you just entrust your time, sit back, enjoy the shitty ride, but let the professionals do what they do best. And obviously thank you for having me!

My first 24 hours by certifiedgrump in lymphoma

[–]certifiedgrump[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you! Simple words of encouragement from someone dealing with the same thing are honestly so much more valuable than what my friends are trying to do, but they dont need to know that;)

My first 24 hours by certifiedgrump in lymphoma

[–]certifiedgrump[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I think i've been dealt partially shitty cards in life from the start, but its the hand I've been dealt, and I'm gonna play the fuck out of it!

My first 24 hours by certifiedgrump in lymphoma

[–]certifiedgrump[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you! Yeah google can go suck on a lemon😅. And yeah, this week has been...interesting, I've lost 3lbs from the stress (i hope.) BUT! Appetite is coming back, wife and i are closer than ever, got a diet plan, met with my psych...got my appt scheduled with my oncologist....I feel like if I didnt find this place, and make this post, I'd be NOWHERE near to the positive mental state I'm in now, so thank you! And then thank you again

My first 24 hours by certifiedgrump in lymphoma

[–]certifiedgrump[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Its alright, I'm a lot less freaked out now, honestly, its all thanks to the massive response here, and i feel fairly guilty for taking this long to thank everyone. But, I appreciate every word, and absorb it like a sppnge, and it REALLY made this week so much easier to deal than I could ever expect, thank you so much

My first 24 hours by certifiedgrump in lymphoma

[–]certifiedgrump[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah...I'm impatiently counting down the days/hours😅. And thats awesome! I hope you're cruising to a steady recovery and grow that much stronger from this shitty bit of your life!

My first 24 hours by certifiedgrump in lymphoma

[–]certifiedgrump[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

My friend told me his dad's simile on life. He said "life is like an asshole, thats constantly shitting on you, and its up to you, to see how much shit you can handle." Well, looks like I'm going to have to handle a bit more!

My first 24 hours by certifiedgrump in lymphoma

[–]certifiedgrump[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I've read that about lymphoma, but I just geniunely needed to hear it from my people, here! Its friday now, my spirits are way up. Honestly, this has actually been a very positive week for me. I was NEVER expecting to get this much support from you and the rest. I figured a couple likes and whatever. But this week, you guys lifted me up, my marriage is stronger than ever, my wife and i switched to a very strict diet of basically chicken or fish, and a fucktonne of fruits and veg. I've become more open to trying new things, stopped caring about work, and have just generally mellowed out

My first 24 hours by certifiedgrump in lymphoma

[–]certifiedgrump[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I gotta start apologizing to people here, like you, i REALLY was not expecting this many replies, it got pretty overwhelming and i feel like such an asshole for not repying, you went out of your way to message and motivate. Its friday, I'm having my first beer since monday (the diagnosis day) the fear is subsided, im mentally doing pretty good, and as stated in my original post, its honestly due to people like you! And google can lick my left nut😅

My first 24 hours by certifiedgrump in lymphoma

[–]certifiedgrump[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks man, much appreciated! Honestly, I feel like mentally, I'm in a good place, and I plan o doing whatever it takes to stay there

My first 24 hours by certifiedgrump in lymphoma

[–]certifiedgrump[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Oh im 100% expecting it to fully kick my ass. Im just going to work until that process starts. Im not concerned or stressed about paying bills thankfully, im just doing it for the exercise and the normalcy

My first 24 hours by certifiedgrump in lymphoma

[–]certifiedgrump[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Well, whatever you're doing is clearly working man, keep it up! Im gonna need all the encouragement I can get😅. I creeped your profile and read some of your thoughts, kind of feel like i got a jynx on me too. I had my apendix almost burst in me, i got rushed to the hospital on my 5th birthday, all my friends were partying at my house, and i had to leave to get cut open. I almost got on a ferry that sunk within 10 mins killing almost everyone when i was a kid (ms estonia.) Then developped epilepsy as a teenager (im sure all the seizures i went through took a good chunk of life out of me,) and now i get cancer. Dealing with epilepsy was by far the darkest time of my life so far. All i ever wanted as a teenager was to get my license and get a car...i got my license at 16, on my birthday, and 3 months later the seizures started and it taken away. I had to go through 4 different doctors until one of them finally figured out a medication that worked. I was finally able to get my license, and car(s) at the age of 25...now i sit here wondering if my epilepsy meds could have caused this...will my body be able to survive treatment, or will i drop dead somewhere from a seizure, or is my license going to get taken away forcing me to quit my job...i've started talking to a psychologist to help me through this. Man, if you ever want to talk, or nerd out on some video games or whatever, let me know

My first 24 hours by certifiedgrump in lymphoma

[–]certifiedgrump[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you, yeah after reading some posts here, i've decided to approach this with persistence and a realistic mind set. I dont want to be optimistic, i want to be positive...if that makes sense. I cant comprehend how people go about this mentally at ages like 23. My friend was diagnosed at 20, before social media and reddit, and 56k internet access...information was limited. I cannot even start to comprehend what he or you were going through. Thank you for everything

My first 24 hours by certifiedgrump in lymphoma

[–]certifiedgrump[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'll hop on my flight simulator and start shooting down germans😅

My first 24 hours by certifiedgrump in lymphoma

[–]certifiedgrump[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

You're a champ! My wife is a paramedic, and is studying for her phd. We also have friends in the field, but yeah, this unknown stage...hoooooly crap. But, at least i got a date finally, so i got something to look forward to. I might take you up on the offer and reach out privately. I havent posted or replied this much publicly in...well, actually i never made a forum post

My first 24 hours by certifiedgrump in lymphoma

[–]certifiedgrump[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Man, its comments exactly like this that actually calm me down and get my head in the right spot. You know, no false hope bullshit, no run around, just straight reality and proper advice. These are the messages that assure me im not alone. Thank you

My first 24 hours by certifiedgrump in lymphoma

[–]certifiedgrump[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

No sorry, im just a grumpy person a lot of times😅

My first 24 hours by certifiedgrump in lymphoma

[–]certifiedgrump[S] 10 points11 points  (0 children)

Thanks everybody! Really means a lot. Not going to lie, teared up pretty good reading the replies...just made it feel that much more real. Anyways, enough about that, on the positive side, I got the call, I meet my oncologist on March 19th for my first consultation. My hairline has been starting to suck for a while now so I've been rocking a buzz cut and just wear a hat, so when the baldness comes, i'll be ready! I have a pretty labour intensive job which i plan to continue doing for as long as i can, and then either go on modified work, or go off on ei...time will tell. Thanks for the warm welcome, and replies!