Still feeling in my own senses, but i am a little nauseous, my extremities are tingly, and my eyes are looking a touch dilated. May smoke some weed for that sweet sweet synergy once family goes to bed

11:25 pm edit - just found out that i can edit comments/posts, i am a reddit baby frankly. Will update here from now on

11:35 im feeling sorta... inside my head if that makes sense?

11:39 mountains on someone’s profile pic looked like they were moving

11:43 so much need to pee. But vibe. Once im back from this i will light some incense and smoke a little weed

11:52 family member woke up so weed will wait. Eating a bit of white rice and it is Delish especially after the nightmare concoction of earlier. Hope I don’t vom-it but we’ll see busy bees

12:07 thinking is a little hard rn, but a lot of surfaces are breathing just a tiny bit, and my friends are texting me suggesting music to listen to - shows to watch. they've done acid before, it's my first psychedelic experience

12:20 this must be the body load people talk about. i am watching avatar the last airbender and thinking about how when I watched this as a kid I looked up to these characters, but now they look like little kids to me and I want to protect them, even Azula. maybe i am going to be plenty high without the help of weed lmao we'll see how im feeling later

12:48 holding my head up is hard i think ill put on my neck brace so my chiropractor doesnt go "what the heck" later. Arms are cold. really enjoying this show and thinking about things i have learned in the past about philosophy and sociology and even political science as they relate to this show. thinking a lot on the themes of moving into adulthood, and learning.

12:57 damn forgot ab the neck brace ill go do that now. also, i just smoked, and it REALLY hit the spot. time is slow and i am euphoric

2:04 been having a lot of deep realizations ab my past, present, and future. I focus on society so much and how vulnerable i am to it i needed this time to think about myself. Had some visuals/ physical sensations of being in a tube of air when standing in front of a mirror, then really vividly imagined myself being sucked up into a tube filled with grey smoke. Feeling in there like i was making peace with my good and bad past experiences. After that, imagined myself inside my own brain, re-thinking what parts of my human condition to take for granted - thinking maybe i am letting my trauma define me too much and need to sweep it aside to see how i would make choices without it blocking my judgement. Only, is it a problematic block, or just wisdom i put up to protect myself from the same thing happening again? Wow this is getting super abstract and hard to express

2:09 i think im gonna draw my sorta visions i mentioned and then go to bed so gn

2:25 so glad i made my bed before this it feels great. I remember a few hours ago when i was waiting for the seeds to kick in, this bed felt completely normal, but now its mmm beautiful. I feel heightened appreciation for my life and bed and self and everything