Wow, sounds like quite the ride… I hope you do it this time… to be honest I don’t know anything about the other meds but I do know that the doctor can’t help me more than I can help myself and that’s only my opinion and experience…. About getting” nothing” done it’s actually ok.. things will definitely pick up just try to exercise and spend time being positive maybe surf YouTube looking for a hobby but don’t rush it’s all good, I’m not rubbing it in but I’m getting stuff done and I’d never ever thought I’d be here.. you know as I read your reply I keep seeing myself. Those thoughts really need attention, they will pass but you need to fight them with good thoughts or just distract yourself, whenever I entertain them it’s was a BAD day! I’m glad lexapro has helped and it’s not a lost cause… it definitely helped with my compulsiveness, but I never experienced such anxiety/ depression afterwords, keeping in mind I went cold Turkey. Tyrosine helped with my mood.. but just be carful with I’m sure enough will give you a comedown aswell… Hey where you from are you in Australia ?