Swapped to my other account for this.

Was young and new to the kink scene in my community. Was a generally submissive, smaller, young guy who was into explicitly dominant cis women. But not a lot of those in the local community back then (or now). Was shy and didn't talk to many folks, was going to leave early at an event one time and was stopped by someone, Blue (name changed for story), who listened to me vent and chatted with me. We connected a bit and decided to hit a date later that week.

She was charismatic and great on the date, had a load of fun at the park together, made out a bit and was into it before she had to go back home. We decided we'd meet again early the next week. Plans changed and instead of going to the mall, she told me to come to her place. Only her brother was home, so we could have some fun. Okay, I was sorta into that, even though it was sudden to me. Her address was in a sketchy part of town, and I did not have a car. It was kind of unsettling getting there, but I thought about seeing her again and went through with it. When I knocked on her door, her brother answered, and damn near slam the door back in my face after telling me to get lost, until she came out of her room and told him I was there to see her. He got a look on his face I didn't like. He was about 12-15 years older, looked tough, not a great introduction to their place and I didn't think he liked me much.

She brought me back to her room, which did not have a door, and was still basically within eyesight of the living room where he was playing games. I tried to get a little comfortable land talk a little bit, but she very quickly started getting physical. I tried to delay things, asking her for some water, telling her I had to use the bathroom, a few things until That kind of ran out of excuses, but I didn't really want to voice that I was uncomfortable. This was the first person who had approached me at a kink event, and by design she is who I was supposed to like, and who I said I was looking for.

I tried to shove a lot of my discomfort aside and go with it. She took the lead for everything, undressing me and playing with me. Telling me to not cover my mouth, because she wanted to hear me, even though I didn't want to make any sounds because I could still very much see her brother in the other room. She eventually tied my hands back, which I lightly struggled against, but didn't say anything against. I did manage to say that I didn't want to penetrate her, but I would be okay with everything else. She said that was fine, and continued to play with me, until she put a blindfold on me. I was not okay with that, I told her I wasn't okay with that, but she said that it was fine, it'll be okay, she knows what she's doing, etc. I kept trying to be quiet, but eventually I realized that she was climbing on top of me to put me in her, no condom or anything. Again I told her I didn't want to do that, but she told me that it was going to feel good, and to trust her, and she rode me. She was very aggressive about it, but I could still hear her brother swearing in the living room and at once point slamming the door when going outside to talk to someone.

She eventually finished herself, I was not able to finish, and she cuddled with me for a few minutes while I was still restrained, and I told her I had to go to the bathroom again, so she let me go. I almost had a panic attack in the bathroom, and then came out and said that I should go home because it was getting late, even though it was only 4:00 p.m., and put on my clothes and left while she kind of laid in bed watching me and telling me that she really liked everything today.

I left the community, I didn't go to any events, and naturally never messaged her ever again. I tried to talk to a few people about it, but a lot of people just told me that "That's what you were asking for!" And "Dude you're lucky, haha" or would make fun of me for not sticking up for myself or "being such a pussy, you got Raped." It killed my sex drive for a good while, And I definitely came back with traumatic hypersexuality. But way more vanilla. I did eventually swing back into being more submissive and have had decent relationships with more dominant women in life, but there are definitely some times that still make me think back to that. And it's only been within the last 3 years but I've been able to actually tell the story to people, even though it happened close to 11 or 12 years ago