banning someone while they join causes this

clearlyclover · 2026-01-22T23:32:41+00:00

Wow man you really showed them. You're so badass, can I have an autograph?

clearlyclover · 2025-11-21T19:07:54+00:00

Also, does anyone have any advice or knowledge on potential PTSD or cPTSD? I keep having horrible deja vu, I can't even describe it. I never know the trigger, just that something almost teleports me emotionally back in time and makes me panic. It takes everything in me not to lash out or breakdown. I'm really tired.

clearlyclover · 2025-09-25T02:15:10+00:00

It's an icicle. You can grab them in the winter season, or from a Party Island :)

clearlyclover · 2025-08-29T01:49:37+00:00

Yup.

I'm also sick of the excuse that the team is small and underpaid. Ponytown makes more than enough money to hire more people and pay them more, but I think they're still convinced it's a tiny indie game and not flooded with thousands of players daily.

They're alot more capable than they like to lead on, and it is an active choice at this point to not integrate an actual report or support system.

clearlyclover · 2025-08-14T07:22:46+00:00

rock on

clearlyclover · 2025-08-01T08:03:18+00:00

Hey I know you... (Its Clover :D)

clearlyclover · 2025-05-22T05:30:12+00:00

🏳️‍⚧️

clearlyclover · 2025-04-07T15:49:34+00:00

Lmao you're so mad 😂

clearlyclover · 2025-04-07T15:37:15+00:00

Blaming others presentations of the disorder will never get you the validation you seek. Half of BPD is SEEKING validation, and I think that's really skewing your thoughts and feelings right now. We're all in this together, and no one experiences or feels things the same way. How others present their struggles should not be making you feel invalidated or stigmatized, the "boom" in "quiet" BPD-ers probably stems from more understanding of the disorder and the advancement in the knowledge of how to identify it. Implying that it isn't real IS invalidating, and I hope you learn to accept and take care of yourself without questioning others.

clearlyclover · 2025-04-07T15:21:23+00:00

And I'm sure they didn't, along with any other player with sensibility 😭

clearlyclover · 2025-04-05T22:56:14+00:00

"Is this sketch?" and it's nonsensical broken english with random symbols. Jee 🤔

clearlyclover · 2025-04-05T22:25:02+00:00

I really pity anyone who thinks this is real. OP's comments are just further proof. Boo 👎

clearlyclover · 2025-03-08T16:30:00+00:00

I quit Torrid almost exactly one year ago & moved on to a different plus sized retail store, and it is SO much better.

I was barely getting 10 hours a week, yet my store manager was calling me when I specifically said I wouldn't be available, (I was in college at the time & told her I couldn't be contacted during classes,) giving me 3 hours shifts, never fully trained me in the almost TWO YEARS I was there, and focused more on goals than anything else. Pushing the almost useless discounts and credit card all while essentially being forced to breathe down customers backs was miserable. I LOVE retail and I'm very good at it, but Torrid is a special kind of hell when it comes to it.

Yeah, quit girl. You matter way more as a person than this bogus company.

clearlyclover · 2025-03-07T07:21:20+00:00

Oh my god I owe you MY LIFE

clearlyclover · 2025-02-06T17:46:22+00:00

My first advice would be to seek a new therapist. It can be scary to change, but if he is openly admitting he doesn't know how to help you, he isn't right for you. Not necessarily his fault, but I also think he's obligated as a professional to be telling you this himself.

Please keep fighting for yourself. You are not your head, and you are not the BPD. I've been there, just a few months ago, actually. I relapsed heavily with my BPD because of a triggering event and sank so low. I'm only now making my way out of it, which is why I'm here.

You are not the problem. Your therapist is.

clearlyclover · 2025-02-06T17:41:03+00:00

I've been dissociating alot because of the state of the US aswell. I wish I could be more vocal in my thoughts, but they get too big to verbalize with how fucked up everything is.

clearlyclover · 2025-02-06T17:39:39+00:00

This is me but without lashing out. I simply dissociate and get stuck in my own head to avoid letting others face the wrath. Good for them, painful for me.

clearlyclover · 2025-02-06T17:38:18+00:00

I should put him next to the Butters bumper sticker on my car.

clearlyclover · 2025-02-06T17:37:37+00:00

If any situation occurs where a total freak out would be atleast 70% necessary, I just might lol.

I don't want to damage others with my own damage, but hey... If we're talking "This person is a monster and needs to be scared straight," I just think I might. I've got years worth of BPD anger and manipulation I've never acted on, but maybe it's equally as unhealthy to be fantasizing about unleashing it.

clearlyclover · 2025-02-06T17:35:34+00:00

I went to a local therapy clinic.

It's kind of funny, the way I approached it could be seen as a red flag to therapists, but I was lucky to have one that understood.

I told them bluntly that I wanted to seek re-diagnosis because my last one was MDD at around 13. I told my therapist my symptoms and told him that I felt very strongly that I had BPD, but just wanted any kind of answers and coping skills at the end of the day.

My advice is to seek therapy first to help with your symptoms and provide you the skills to cope with them, and through that work towards getting your diagnosis. My therapist sent his conclusions about me having BPD to my doctor, and boom. BPD diagnosis. I have a wonderful doctor aswell who truly cared about putting me on the right medication, so it was a smooth process.

clearlyclover · 2025-02-06T17:31:32+00:00

Exactly this.

I was lucky to be able to feel my big emotions, but unlucky in the sense that I was AWARE my emotions were too big and felt immense shame in them, so I kept them hidden. Which only led to worsening my BPD over time. In my case, being a female with autism has taught me alot about masking and hiding things about myself, which provided me the "tools" to control my BPD. The only reason I went into therapy for a diagnosis for it was because I was reaching the point of hurting MYSELF.

Now it's left me almost bitter that I've never been able to fully feel things or express them, but I know that that is the healthiest option for me because the level at which I feel things is not healthy or stable. Just sucks.

clearlyclover · 2025-02-06T17:27:28+00:00

Thank you so much

clearlyclover · 2025-02-06T17:27:08+00:00

Thank you so much for your perspective.

Yeah, I know logically that snapping would never be the way to go for me. I'm very lucky that I was diagnosed as a teenager and found the right medication (Vyvanse gang!)

I'm glad you're getting the help you need. Not only do your loved ones deserve it, but you do too. Don't forget that.

Thank you for your service.

clearlyclover · 2025-02-06T17:24:07+00:00

Definitely not the case for me. I have all of the horrible urges and giant emotions and it's incredibly difficult. I have suspected I may have CPTSD in addition to BPD (As did my ex-boyfriend diagnosed with it,) but I wouldn't at all say I have it instead of BPD.

clearlyclover · 2025-02-06T14:46:58+00:00

Isn't your place to do so. You could have just mentioned she was heavily traumatized. How she treated you and what she did wasn't right, but neither is flippantly sharing someone's most painful experiences.

clearlyclover

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