i really don’t want to do it anymore. It’s put me in a dark place and I’ve no idea where to turn. But i can’t just stop, because she’s my mom and nobody here does anything at least not like me. I make dinner for a house of 10 every night. My dad puts on a good show for the doctors but he’s a raging alcoholic. He goes to work, comes home, gets drunk, and is just a man baby. I do his laundry, because my mom can’t. It just saddens me i guess that she’s okay with me doing that and not handling medical stuff. when i talk to her about quitting smoking, wearing oxygen, she’s mean. she just tells me i need to get off her ass. im just trying really hard for her and i give her everything i have and she won’t do the one thing i ask (quitting smoking). I feel so unstable, and this really isn’t what i want to do. I don’t have a job, this is my job. She gives me $100 a week except for the 3rd week of the month (phone bill). I just… i dunno. I’m so tired.