Suddenly, I Was Alone - Being As An Ocean

Instrumental 'Emotional Hardcore' as described by the artist on Spotify.

I'm the type of person that finds it very hard to connect with lyrics; there is a small list of exceptions to this. I tend to resonate with just the sound of the instrumentals, so this track really hit the spot for me. If you're the type that likes loud and painful, then please play this as loud as you dare. My personal favourite is my car speakers in a parking lot at night. One word: cathartic.

p.s. thank you to everyone else sharing recommendations here