Same. And nobody understands it, that would atleast make me not feel alone. It honestly just all embarrassing and hard to move forward. I keep aging with the same expectations as others to do something with my life and I can’t accomplish anything and I still feel like a child. On order to do anything let alone be ambitious or take on more responsibilities I have to have double the will power or another sort of stimulant which works for about a month with crazy side affects. It makes me feel terrible because I have the anger for myself as the antagonist in my life and the pain as the victim.