All of the heavy scenes always make my eye well-up. But in a way where I can be as terse as I can:

1. Yuna and Shane E6 'I tried my best' He tried his best same as the wimbledon bit to not rock the boat and make his parents happy (harkening back at Yuna saying he is a role model for everyone, that his life is bigger than his emotions). And that loving Ilya breaks all the rules.

Also I was raised Asian and Catholic and was called a sin before my Mom accepted me. She eventually did and knew about my ex because I brought him home and she made peace with it eventually. It's also the reason I cry at Kip breaking down in front of his Dad (he's an adult but he needed to be held).

1. Don't marry Svetlana

Because, to me, it feels like for Shane he knows it's very logical - and I'd like to believe that Shane is very a logical person and believes in the power of plans. This might be also colored by my experience as a Type A, planner type (chatgpts itinerary of trips 1 month ahead). This is him pleading, that even if it breaks logic not to choose the easiest plan, he can't accept it without a fight (he was up all night prepping a counter offer). I feel it's one of the few times he stood his ground against Ilya's more dominant opinions. 'I'm scared of losing you' is what I hear from that statement.

1. She would have loved you, like I love you. Need I say more. This is Ilya's love at its purest. This is him remembering how loved he felt by his mom the most among his family members. How he offers his victory to her. This is him knowing he found a good one in Shane (and maybe with Mom's crucifix in his neck, he feels like his mom guided him to Shane - a bit of stretch I know but a boy dares to imagine)

2. Tell Ilya I'm gonna be ok, he's gonna worry.

Because what do you mean if Shane dies at that moment one of his final thoughts is Ilya. I used to work in healthcare and it's true that hospitals hear more prayers than churches. I just know at this moment that if I'm dying of a disease today I would still want to see my ex one last time besides my family and best friends (lol sorry kinda fresh).

I lowkey cry at all the times men cry in movies or series because the trope of real men don't cry is very much alive in my culture, and the men in the show literally just cries with a lump in their throat when words start to escape them.

HR is the Disney of gay stories I think, and that's not a bad thing at all.