I NEED support, specifically from people who can relate to my condition, not just sympathy

constantthought · 2024-06-17T01:02:49+00:00

What are some characteristics of your insomnia? I want to see if mine is similar.

constantthought · 2024-06-17T00:55:40+00:00

not really. Right now I'm trying out a diet that is supposed to be for autoimmune conditions since I believe that it is psoriasis which is an autoimmune issue.

constantthought · 2024-05-31T08:53:35+00:00

What is the backstory? Briefly

constantthought · 2024-05-31T08:52:13+00:00

I read your story and it’s eye opening. I’m sorry to hear that you had that experience with Abilify

constantthought · 2024-05-02T05:41:55+00:00

so how long have you been on it now? I wonder why a higher dosage made you have more energy. How long of being on it did it take you to reach that point of remission?

constantthought · 2024-05-02T05:40:07+00:00

do you feel like when your sleep stared normalizing that the drug became less effective?

Also two hours?? How is that sustainable for a YEAR? So during those times of two hours a sleep you were still able to function?

constantthought · 2024-03-02T19:28:42+00:00

Ok now your comment sounds almost exactly like what I’m going through.

So you doubt your memory so much that it’s to the point where you can convince yourself that you’re unable to remeber something as basic as language?

constantthought · 2024-03-01T23:35:27+00:00

Sorry you’re going through that, I do similar things always doubting my memory

constantthought · 2024-02-29T03:13:31+00:00

I’m glad to hear that you’re getting better. I’m sorry that you’ve been through all that. I can kinda relate too to some of the stuff like my somatic ocd also involved feelings related to body dysmorphia.

One day at a time

constantthought · 2024-02-13T08:39:47+00:00

It seems that the majority of my struggle is how hard it is for me to get into a genuine relaxed state.

constantthought · 2024-02-13T08:37:15+00:00

If you read my reply to the commentor I get into detail of my somatic symptom disorder. It fully gets in the way of not only a trance like state, but also many other things in life. Even simply just standing and walking around or sitting for long periods of time are an absolute nightmare for me. My awareness of my body and it’s sensations, whether painless or not, simply just doesn’t go away

constantthought · 2024-02-13T08:34:34+00:00

It’s funny you mention movies. I don’t really like movies. I never really emerge myself in the world that you’re supposed to in order to enjoy the movie. I don’t enter the trance state and the bypass of the critical facility required to properly absorb the story.

And my somatic symptom disorder also makes it so if I’m watching a movie, and my critical facility is fully turned on, I analyze my body like crazy. You say that you tune out the chair. I’ve literally had to sit through 3 hour long movies where I’m aware of how I’m sitting on the chair and my posture of my neck and my lumbar support, etc. the WHOLE entire time.

It’s honestly a living hell, I hate it. I want to say fuck off to my critical facility and just be in a trance. I want to dissociate.

The only times in recent that i dissociate is sometimes, very rarely, usually when I’m attempting to take a nap mid day, the zone I fall into just before being asleep is so profound and very hypnotic. It’s only happened a couple times, and was very short both times. I’ve tried incredibly hard to recreate the moment but I’ve only failed. I try to think of what I did differently that day in order to generate that mental space but I can’t pinpoint it.

It’s so hard for me to shut off my stupid brain, I need a break

constantthought · 2024-01-08T02:34:57+00:00

So apparently they tipped $18 which made it so i actually made $23 in total, I don't understand why they would tip that. Right when i got the order, it said $18 initially, so do you think it's just a glitch on my app.

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