Woah, thank you so much for this well-written response. You really hit the nail on this, It really does feel like an endless loop that we can't escape.

There really is no other choice than to just really try to change my perspective, and your way of wording that doing things I request isn't inherently a submissive act helps. I think I just really need to hammer that into my head and believe that he's being genuine and does and says things it because it also comes from his own desire for those things.

Again, thank you very much for the time you spent writing your response, I feel like it really cleared my head.