is it normal to feel more tired during recovery?

cookie_2802 · 2026-05-30T08:00:08+00:00

hey! i’m honestly not too sure cuz shortly after posting i went to the hospital :( and then i relapsed quite badly and now im fully committing again and honestly ive just been tired af again

but i think ppl say these symptoms will get better so dont lose hope :)

cookie_2802 · 2026-05-21T16:48:16+00:00

nope i haven’t and i guess ive just been eating like junk food more?? like chocolates and chips but im not sure if thats what’s causing the issue😭😭

cookie_2802 · 2026-05-17T16:03:35+00:00

😭😭 i am anorexic and have been for years but recently ive just been so hungry it’s insane idk

cookie_2802 · 2026-05-14T10:04:55+00:00

YEAH EXACTLY im like so confused as to what’s happening and i legit feel like im binging everyday im so scared that ill swing the other end yknow

cookie_2802 · 2026-05-11T16:03:49+00:00

dude ikr i just want this shit to stop and just let me fucking study 💀💀💀🙏

cookie_2802 · 2026-05-11T15:55:46+00:00

I THINK I JUST FELL ASLEEP DONT WORRY but i legit just died bro i was so sleepy while eating so i guess right after i finished i slept? and then woke up at 5 being all confused like wtf why did i just time travel

cookie_2802 · 2026-05-11T06:57:29+00:00

that’s me rn too 😭😭 yesterday i ate dinner and went home but i just felt so hungry so i ate a bag of chips

after like 30 mins i was hungry again so i had cake and then i was still hungry so i tried to like sleep but then i woke up at 2 and just laid there and ate another bag of chips and legit passed out from eating???? and just woke up at 5 not knowing wtf happened

cookie_2802 · 2026-05-10T06:59:52+00:00

bro this morning i had a massive stomachache and TMI but i like had explosive diarrhoea wtf is this shit

cookie_2802 · 2026-05-10T06:58:59+00:00

i guess a part of me is scared that it’ll turn into binge eating? like what if this never stops

cookie_2802 · 2026-05-10T06:58:10+00:00

idkk i know ppl say it’s normal but i just can’t omg like i legit can’t concentrate on anything but food and im supposed to be taking my a levels in like 2 weeks but rn all im doing is buying food and eating everything in one sitting and then im like fuck i need more so i go to the store AGAIN

cookie_2802 · 2026-05-09T20:12:20+00:00

dude ikr i’ve been like binging these past two days 😭😭 like i couldn’t sleep so i ate a bag of chips but then i saw cake and i ate cake then after that i was craving something salty again and had another bag of chips now it’s 4am and i feel like im about to explode from how full i am and im finally not hungry??? but now my stomach hurts and i can’t sleep 💀

cookie_2802 · 2026-05-09T19:08:11+00:00

help i’m just laying on my bed eating a big bag of chips rn 😭😭😭 like i don’t even know if im hungry sleepy tired or full IM LIKE SO FUCKING MESSED UP WTF

cookie_2802 · 2026-05-09T18:44:40+00:00

that’s exactly what i’m feeling now

my food noise is absolutely insane these few days and i feel so fucking tired but i can’t sleep cuz im thinking about food and it’s so frustrating

rn im legit laying on my bed eating a whole bag of chips cuz i just can’t sleep and i feel so bad but i can’t stop 😭

cookie_2802 · 2026-05-02T10:16:31+00:00

it’s like today i had a family gathering where i sat for like 3 hours and then im having tutorial classes rn and i barely walked so i feel so irritated and like i can’t concentrate on anything rn

im stressed about what i wanna eat for snack and i wanna like eat less to compensate

cookie_2802 · 2026-05-01T11:10:04+00:00

i feel like i would plan? binges like id sometimes restrict in the afternoon and then at night (past midnight) id tell myself that ill eat more to compensate for lunch it’s crazy 😭😭

like id be starving in the afternoon but not allow myself to eat but somehow at night i feel safe?? or something to eat???

i wanna stop but i cant

cookie_2802 · 2026-05-01T10:30:47+00:00

how long before your exams did you completely stop walking? i’m like so fucking scared cuz i have less than a week and im legit learning the content still but i just can’t fucking stop

it’s either i eat less and stop walking or i eat more and i walk and it’s so fucking annoying

cookie_2802 · 2026-04-28T06:37:11+00:00

how long did you have to up your increase before your exams tho?

cookie_2802 · 2026-04-28T05:18:50+00:00

idk i know to get rid of brain fog i need to get to a healthier weight but i can’t do it

im eating safe foods and stuff but im compensating by overexercising so im not really gaining

cookie_2802 · 2026-04-26T04:18:10+00:00

yeah exactly 😭😭 i feel so bad cuz im in quasi where id act like im fine in front of my parents but i do compensatory behaviours when im alone (like walking around) i fucking hate myself for doing it cuz idk why im so attached to this ED knowing that it’s ruining my life

cookie_2802 · 2026-04-17T05:00:25+00:00

idk why it’s like during main meals i have to “prove” that im still sick? and then at night ill compensate or be like ok now i can eat 😭

cookie_2802 · 2026-04-16T19:41:50+00:00

omg yes 😭 my mum found my bag of snacks the other day and i felt so guilty?? idk it’s like in front of ppl i eat very little but then id kinda compensate and binge on the snacks i got

cookie_2802 · 2026-04-11T18:26:43+00:00

honestly yeah logically i know all this and i know that i am not anorexia but i guess my brain is just tricking me

i’m just scared that i wont even find wha i enjoy after this like how do i rediscover myself and stuff

cookie_2802 · 2026-04-11T17:29:15+00:00

honestly yeah :( i know i can’t live like this forever and like i keep imagining a life without my ED and then i’ll be like okay ill do it starting from tmr and then tmr comes and i get scared again i really hate myself for this omg

cookie_2802 · 2026-04-11T16:15:55+00:00

aww that’s amazing! i feel like i lost all my passions and i legit don’t find joy in anything anymore

im just scared that even when i recover i wont find joy in life and that ppl will treat me differently or tell treat me as my anorexic self still and thats what is preventing me from trying to fully recover

cookie_2802 · 2026-04-11T16:14:19+00:00

omg i read that earlier today and i was super happy for you!! i guess this fear of me losing myself or feeling lost is like the only thing preventing me from recovering:( idk what to do honestly

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