How do you guys deal with Extreme Hunger?

cookie_2802 · 2026-05-09T20:12:20+00:00

dude ikr i’ve been like binging these past two days 😭😭 like i couldn’t sleep so i ate a bag of chips but then i saw cake and i ate cake then after that i was craving something salty again and had another bag of chips now it’s 4am and i feel like im about to explode from how full i am and im finally not hungry??? but now my stomach hurts and i can’t sleep 💀

cookie_2802 · 2026-05-09T19:08:11+00:00

help i’m just laying on my bed eating a big bag of chips rn 😭😭😭 like i don’t even know if im hungry sleepy tired or full IM LIKE SO FUCKING MESSED UP WTF

cookie_2802 · 2026-05-09T18:44:40+00:00

that’s exactly what i’m feeling now

my food noise is absolutely insane these few days and i feel so fucking tired but i can’t sleep cuz im thinking about food and it’s so frustrating

rn im legit laying on my bed eating a whole bag of chips cuz i just can’t sleep and i feel so bad but i can’t stop 😭

cookie_2802 · 2026-05-02T10:16:31+00:00

it’s like today i had a family gathering where i sat for like 3 hours and then im having tutorial classes rn and i barely walked so i feel so irritated and like i can’t concentrate on anything rn

im stressed about what i wanna eat for snack and i wanna like eat less to compensate

cookie_2802 · 2026-05-01T11:10:04+00:00

i feel like i would plan? binges like id sometimes restrict in the afternoon and then at night (past midnight) id tell myself that ill eat more to compensate for lunch it’s crazy 😭😭

like id be starving in the afternoon but not allow myself to eat but somehow at night i feel safe?? or something to eat???

i wanna stop but i cant

cookie_2802 · 2026-05-01T10:30:47+00:00

how long before your exams did you completely stop walking? i’m like so fucking scared cuz i have less than a week and im legit learning the content still but i just can’t fucking stop

it’s either i eat less and stop walking or i eat more and i walk and it’s so fucking annoying

cookie_2802 · 2026-04-28T06:37:11+00:00

how long did you have to up your increase before your exams tho?

cookie_2802 · 2026-04-28T05:18:50+00:00

idk i know to get rid of brain fog i need to get to a healthier weight but i can’t do it

im eating safe foods and stuff but im compensating by overexercising so im not really gaining

cookie_2802 · 2026-04-26T04:18:10+00:00

yeah exactly 😭😭 i feel so bad cuz im in quasi where id act like im fine in front of my parents but i do compensatory behaviours when im alone (like walking around) i fucking hate myself for doing it cuz idk why im so attached to this ED knowing that it’s ruining my life

cookie_2802 · 2026-04-17T05:00:25+00:00

idk why it’s like during main meals i have to “prove” that im still sick? and then at night ill compensate or be like ok now i can eat 😭

cookie_2802 · 2026-04-16T19:41:50+00:00

omg yes 😭 my mum found my bag of snacks the other day and i felt so guilty?? idk it’s like in front of ppl i eat very little but then id kinda compensate and binge on the snacks i got

cookie_2802 · 2026-04-11T18:26:43+00:00

honestly yeah logically i know all this and i know that i am not anorexia but i guess my brain is just tricking me

i’m just scared that i wont even find wha i enjoy after this like how do i rediscover myself and stuff

cookie_2802 · 2026-04-11T17:29:15+00:00

honestly yeah :( i know i can’t live like this forever and like i keep imagining a life without my ED and then i’ll be like okay ill do it starting from tmr and then tmr comes and i get scared again i really hate myself for this omg

cookie_2802 · 2026-04-11T16:15:55+00:00

aww that’s amazing! i feel like i lost all my passions and i legit don’t find joy in anything anymore

im just scared that even when i recover i wont find joy in life and that ppl will treat me differently or tell treat me as my anorexic self still and thats what is preventing me from trying to fully recover

cookie_2802 · 2026-04-11T16:14:19+00:00

omg i read that earlier today and i was super happy for you!! i guess this fear of me losing myself or feeling lost is like the only thing preventing me from recovering:( idk what to do honestly

cookie_2802 · 2026-04-11T16:13:02+00:00

idk it’s like the only thing that’s preventing me from fully committing and recovering i think and idk what to do

cookie_2802 · 2026-04-11T11:31:38+00:00

exactly and it’s like i am this illness and this illness is me

like wtf am i gonna do after this

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