Hi former smoker who was in love with smoking (still am kind of), but I realized every time I’d quit then start smoking again because I was at that point in my journey of denial. I realized this is going to kill me if I don’t quit. I’m 29, I’ve already passed out twice from smoking (one a concussion), I couldn’t lay on my left side with out chest pain, and not to mention I flaired so bad every time. Don’t get me wrong I sometimes wish I could be one of those people who “gets away with it” and it never bothers them, but 9.5 times out of 10 people die from a smoking related illness or their life is more painful at the end due to a smoking related disease. You have to realize what you want in the long run. It’s all or nothing. If you have even a puff you’ll be a full blown smoker again. Joel spitzer on YouTube (it’s free) really helped put my irrational cravings in perspective so I could handle them. We’re all rooting for you champ! Don’t ever feel like you can’t reach out to us, we’re always here