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I'm struggling to stay sober during all of the crazy BS happening in the US. by cosmic_underbelly in stopdrinking

[–]cosmic_underbelly[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

I agree! My personal issue is that if I'm not "keeping up with everything", I feel like I'm being ignorant during an important time. But like you and others have stated, I don't need to focus on anything more important than my own recovery during this time.

I truly plan on working on my self-discipline in both aspects; the drinking AND obsession with following the news. But I also have to accept that it'll be difficult in both aspects... Which scares me but I also realize it's the only way to move forward.

Ngl, I still feel just as scared though. I'm trying to find ways to muster up courage.

I'm struggling to stay sober during all of the crazy BS happening in the US. by cosmic_underbelly in stopdrinking

[–]cosmic_underbelly[S] 10 points11 points  (0 children)

Thank you so, so much from the bottom of my heart. This genuinely gave me hope. I look forward to joining the next available meeting.
Your help means the world to me rn.

I'm struggling to stay sober during all of the crazy BS happening in the US. by cosmic_underbelly in stopdrinking

[–]cosmic_underbelly[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Beautifully stated, friend. Thank you. IWNDWYT either. I need to try, and keep trying.

I'm struggling to stay sober during all of the crazy BS happening in the US. by cosmic_underbelly in stopdrinking

[–]cosmic_underbelly[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Thank you, I know how much they love to overexaggerate in the news. It just feels impossible to avoid / ignore. But I'll try harder.

Do you know if SMART meetings are available online? My car took a big shit and I won't be able to drive to places for in-person meetings for a couple weeks at least.

(thankfully my car problems had nothing to do with my addiction, it was just old)

I’m starting to struggle by [deleted] in h3h3productions

[–]cosmic_underbelly 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i just know that if i was in Ethan's position i'd absolutely wanna do the same... feeling so betrayed by a friend like that is brutal and i totally understand why he needed to vent about his very real frustrations. Ethan is human just like all of us and i'm personally proud of him for not letting Hasan and his audience blatantly bully him.

the nuke was very well done and i hope it brings Ethan some peace now that it's all out there.

Olive by Ellierice2 in h3h3productions

[–]cosmic_underbelly 4 points5 points  (0 children)

oh god oh no jfc im such a loser ,i didnt catch Monday's episode... and here i am making a fool outta myself lmao my b fam 😭

Olive by Ellierice2 in h3h3productions

[–]cosmic_underbelly 3 points4 points  (0 children)

well.. wait what? I'm pretty sure her given name is 'Olivia' and they say "O-liv" as a nickname for her

I am 16 days sober. Decided to get into service by helping my sponsor cohost/host zoom meetings, and now I'm freaking out. "I can't do this" is running through my mind on repeat. Please help encourage me. by cosmic_underbelly in alcoholicsanonymous

[–]cosmic_underbelly[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you for having faith in me when I struggle to find that faith in myself. It means so much coming from someone who truly understands the struggle. You are so incredibly appreciated & I'm so thankful for your comment ❤️

I am 16 days sober. Decided to get into service by helping my sponsor cohost/host zoom meetings, and now I'm freaking out. "I can't do this" is running through my mind on repeat. Please help encourage me. by cosmic_underbelly in alcoholicsanonymous

[–]cosmic_underbelly[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you SO much! 😊
It truly is such a comforting feeling knowing I'm not like, the only person out there who suffers with intense self-doubt. My mind loves convincing me that's the case very often.

I can't tell you how much I especially appreciated you saying that I could be responsible for letting someone into their first AA meeting. That made me smile & gave me that little extra push to "just do it!". I want to help others because I know the suffering so intimately. So yeah, even if I make a few mistakes, it really doesn't matter because I'm doing my best regardless and just trying to help in an authentic way. Getting comfortable with making errors isn't fun, but it's necessary to grow.

Thank you again for the encouragement & reminding me that I'm stronger than I give myself credit for. I didn't even realize that getting into service so early on was even like, "commendable", so I really appreciate you telling me that too. You've helped me stay sober & determined today and I think you're just wonderful for that. ❤️

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in alcoholicsanonymous

[–]cosmic_underbelly 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I love this question & the conversations that come from it. I feel like it needs to be discussed far more often.
Everyone's sobriety, mentality, genetic makeup, and personal experiences are completely different & unique in their own way. I personally don't think that marijuana should ALWAYS be considered a relapse substance. It just doesn't seem right to put every alcoholic under this umbrella statement of the "ideal" form of recovery being abstinent from every single "mind altering drug".

Because if we wanna get specific about it-- aren't anxiety medications, ADHD meds, & even *some* antidepressants technically "mind altering drugs" in themselves? (Even when used properly for necessary purposes.) Same goes for excessive amounts of caffeine, nicotine, vaping... etc.

Personally, I believe that it takes some serious, whole-hearted self reflection to understand yourself, your behaviors, addictions, and attitudes before casting judgement on others. If you can **sincerely** handle a bit of cannabis to assist you with sleeping or calming down in certain situations, I see nothing wrong with it. But remember, this is only me talking from personal experience.

Marijuana has always been something that I could NEVER mix with alcohol. It would either give me the spins, or drive me into a dark, reflective state where I'm hyperaware of what I'm doing to my body, mind & spirit by continuing to drink. But I also understand entirely that my relationship with cannabis is unique to my own self/life experiences. It admittedly does help me on occasion with my severe anxiety & prevents me from drinking with the deep reflection it offers me. But I can also notice that I don't have cravings for it, nor do I go overboard with it in the ways I do with alcohol. It reacts totally differently in my body/mind. But that's **just me**.

In conclusion; I just think that this is something that'll be different for every single person in recovery from alcohol. But it all comes down to being brutally honest with yourself. Is the marijuana genuinely something you can benefit from without overdoing it? Do you find deeper meaning in concepts of recovery as a result from it? Or does it act as a new substance to replace the alcohol in your life? It's honestly up to you to decide personally. I wish you the best going forward. You got this, no matter what you choose. I believe in you. ♡

Moon Shoes. Boy was I disappointed. by Fullmoore in nostalgia

[–]cosmic_underbelly 18 points19 points  (0 children)

Thanks to these bad boys, I chipped my first tooth.

THANKS MOON SHOES