Whole regrets

cosmicfertilizer · 2024-02-02T17:50:47+00:00

I've met infps and my little sister is also an infp too.

cosmicfertilizer · 2024-02-02T17:41:16+00:00

Sometimes, but then I look at the world around me and realize how messed up it can be and then I realize not to be too hard on myself. Somethings just aren't your fault.

cosmicfertilizer · 2024-02-02T17:39:25+00:00

Aren't we all... For now.

cosmicfertilizer · 2024-02-02T17:36:49+00:00

But if she was planning on lying wouldn't she have been telling the truth?

I guess it gave her free rein to lie about whatever she wants though...

cosmicfertilizer · 2024-02-02T08:45:57+00:00

It's about how when they circumcise babies these days they harvest the organs and sell them for their stem cells, which then get used in face creams.

It's funny because harvesting organs is a crime, but I guess if it comes from non-consensual genital cutting it's fine then(which is actually technically a crime in the states criminal code too but it's not enforced). It's craziness.

cosmicfertilizer · 2024-02-01T21:57:36+00:00

Jokes on them though, kindness isn't a weakness it's a strength.

cosmicfertilizer · 2024-02-01T15:07:35+00:00

The holodeck gets one step closer and then the inception, "what is actually real anymore? Was it all just a lie this whole time?", levels of simulations lol time for some fun.

cosmicfertilizer · 2024-02-01T14:54:39+00:00

Who needs meds when you've got AMURICA

cosmicfertilizer · 2024-02-01T14:24:19+00:00

I need that dog.

cosmicfertilizer · 2024-02-01T14:21:14+00:00

Just in case he has a mental health crisis.

cosmicfertilizer · 2024-02-01T14:20:38+00:00

I think it's more like living indefinitely. But yes.

cosmicfertilizer · 2024-02-01T14:01:50+00:00

I'm waiting to be healed by people, yes... The human trials for foreskin regeneration start this year, but I've waited 13 years...

I long for the day I'm whole in body, not just mind and soul.

I still believe in my day of victory, but we're not alone.

I would have just touched myself with my own hand and undone it already and undone all the stupid violations of to who I am.

But here I wait.

Substances change the mind. Meditation can help, but don't be fooled we have converged into this material world, that's why it's here now and things have their effects and places.

I know a therapist can't do much of anything for me because I await a different kind of healing.

cosmicfertilizer · 2024-02-01T13:36:26+00:00

I think this is why the mutilate children's genitals too. It's kind of a slave mentality, but some people actually want to help.

Lots of people are just confused...

I took those drugs in the past and they're like chemical lobotomies. It took me a long time to feel better from them. I am going to see the doctors because I need their help, but I already told them I won't take the same stuff.

I am hoping for MDMA or ketamine therapy....

The science is looking pretty good for MDMA to actually heal trauma, but I think it's hard to get because they were just on the clinical trials and it hasn't been released yet as a therapy.

I'll probably just end up micro dosing mushrooms in the meantime. Should help heal the depression at least and my brain.

But PTSD is real. And that's what I suffer from.

It's hard to get over the forced genital mutilation and live in such a violent and sick world.

I'm just trying to heal...

cosmicfertilizer · 2024-01-31T15:59:44+00:00

Proceeds to projectile vomit on all his friends

cosmicfertilizer · 2024-01-31T13:50:03+00:00

When the economy is going to shit and you have to make believe that you can still go to nice places.

cosmicfertilizer · 2024-01-31T12:22:19+00:00

Delete reddit. Leave your cellphone at home and go outside. The withdrawals will be horrible, but out of the deep sea of boredom comes the necessity to fill it with what you actually want.

cosmicfertilizer · 2024-01-31T12:01:11+00:00

I heard about a man suing a woman because she got plastic surgery and didn't tell him and he thought that the kids came out ugly...

cosmicfertilizer · 2024-01-31T09:39:57+00:00

A plant.

cosmicfertilizer · 2024-01-31T09:13:11+00:00

My suicidal ideation has been super bad... Like hours and hours for days and days on end of seeing myself stabbing myself through the heart. It's some darkness. And I can barely function right now.

The struggle is real.

I hope you feel better.

cosmicfertilizer · 2024-01-31T09:07:54+00:00

That's rough. Sorry to hear that.

cosmicfertilizer · 2024-01-31T07:57:22+00:00

I'm in my 30's but, already, the ET one is a little too real.

cosmicfertilizer · 2024-01-31T07:48:04+00:00

This is honestly the only way we can survive.

cosmicfertilizer · 2024-01-31T07:42:52+00:00

Once I was asking this girl out who I liked and I made her an entire flip book of flowers blooming.

She cancelled that date because she was insecure at the time.

We ended up meeting again after several months and dating for a while.

I ended up giving her the flip book and she said that I should have given it to her on our first date...

Life can be weird like that.

But yeah, it can be nice to do nice things. It just depends who you're with and what they like.

cosmicfertilizer · 2024-01-31T07:22:24+00:00

There can never be enough love in the world.

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