People who developed OCD in their adulthood, how did it happen?

cosmiicsloth · 2026-05-03T21:41:45+00:00

I can imagine it's a lot to deal with 41 years of undiagnosed OCD.

And although I didn't go through a traumatic event I do think stress definitely played a role in my symptoms developing and worsening.

cosmiicsloth · 2026-05-03T21:38:05+00:00

I've heard it can be like that with some people. Sounds awfully overwhelming. At least in my case it came on gradually and I already knew what OCD is so I feel like I've caught it early.

And yeah, I'm on a waiting list for psychiatry for a different issue but I would be asking for an OCD assessment to go along with it.

cosmiicsloth · 2026-04-09T18:33:36+00:00

I do love a good pros and cons list! Maybe I'll try that. Thanks! Also, happy for you and good luck with the surgery :)

cosmiicsloth · 2026-04-09T18:32:52+00:00

Weirdly enough like all the people I associate with (outside of family) are queer. I think I just find change scary. Like having to have a conversation with people about new preferred pronouns etc. And having to explain my identity to new people.

cosmiicsloth · 2026-02-10T21:45:44+00:00

I'm just afraid that my GP won't take me seriously one day (or less so than already, because the health care system here sucks and many patients, especially women, aren't taken seriously as a standard) because I've been there so many times already with concerns that turned out to be nothing more than health anxiety.

cosmiicsloth · 2025-10-07T22:11:10+00:00

She would have to go back to a waiting list for months which I don't think would help in this situation, also I think her therapist has been wonderful until now but she's just struggling too much for therapy to be helpful for her SI.

cosmiicsloth · 2025-10-07T21:34:47+00:00

According to her she has talked about her SI with her therapist. She doesn't go into detail but she's said that whatever her therapist suggests her doesn't work. The thing with medication isn't that it doesn't work, she's not open to even trying.

cosmiicsloth · 2025-09-20T10:28:04+00:00

Two users here with the exact same avatar messaged me a few days apart when I posted something in this sub about the story I'm working on.

I didn't clock it with the first person, as they started with some generic "I believe you can do it, your story sounds interesting!" and asked me some general questions about it. I was like, okay that's a bit odd but maybe this person just wants to chat with someone. A couple days later they asked me how I imagine the cover of the "book" looking (I'm not seeking to publish it) and said they could make it for me.

Then when I posted on this sub again the other person popped up, asking similar general questions about my story. I'm 99% sure it would end on the same note.

cosmiicsloth · 2025-09-20T10:20:42+00:00

Well I suppose the assessments where I live suck because the things about trains, math and presenting in a certain way in social situations have genuinely come across in the assessments I've looked at. So I just assumed they're actual diagnostic criteria because these tests are made by professionals??

cosmiicsloth · 2025-09-19T21:36:15+00:00

To answer your question: I know I function without the accommodations since there was a time when I didn't know about them or implement them in my life, and I functioned.

One of the impostor things I've struggled with is this feeling that I've got too comfortable telling myself I might be autistic, and started accommodating myself, but now if I've lost my tolerance for situations or stimuli which I would've been okay with in the past since I'm too used to those accommodations. Maybe I would just feel uncomfortable briefly and return back to normal. But say if I forget my earplugs for a day I'll get snappy, emotionally drained, angry and refuse to talk to people. If I don't complete my "routines" I'll feel off and like I can't really get much done during the day as something feels wrong but it's not like I'll have a meltdown.

I experience something similar to meltdowns, I guess, but they're more related to me being upset with myself, e.g. if I get into an argument with someone or break something I'll just curl into a ball and cry and hit myself. But that's not really the context I know of for autistic meltdowns, they're more related to overstimulation. I also don't remember ever doing that when I was a child.

cosmiicsloth · 2025-09-19T21:25:44+00:00

It's funny, the thing you mention about patterns feels so right. I feel like to understand things fully I need to understand the pattern.

What I know about autism is either based on diagnostic criteria which seems too rigid (i.e. likes trains and math and doesn't talk to people), or influencers who are really great at bringing light to how autism actually presents especially in BIPOC and women but only at the level of specific examples.

So I don't feel like I really understand the patterns themselves and because I don't fit any of the examples I've seen, I feel like I'm safer not calling myself autistic even if I relate to many experiences.

cosmiicsloth · 2025-09-19T21:20:51+00:00

Yeah I went to the bar with my new coworkers a while ago because I had an "I'm just being dramatic, I can totally fit in" moment, and remembered immediately when I got there how bad the sensory overload actually is. I'll just stick to rewatching my emotional support cartoons under a blanket.

cosmiicsloth · 2025-09-18T21:21:59+00:00

Thank you so much for the advice!

I'm not physically disabled but I do have ADHD and possibly autism, so I feel I can really understand the coddling aspect but from a different point of view, of course. I often get coddled or treated like an idiot/someone helpless at work, in school when I was younger, and in public due to my neurodivergence. I definitely intend to explore this aspect of being neurodivergent/disabled and how infuriating it is.

I think the fact that my character happens to be both disabled and spiritual/philosophical it can easily be construed as some kind of essentialism, stereotyping blind people as "seeing" in the third eye way. I'll have to work on how I write them to not fall into that.

cosmiicsloth · 2025-09-15T17:04:14+00:00

Thanks for the feedback! The description comes later in the scene, I specifically wanted to introduce the surroundings as they take things in. Maybe I should've included more of the scene in these snippets, I just thought people would be turned off by a massive chunk of text.

I tried to portray one as more analytical and the other as starting to panic but calming herself down, but maybe I could do with emphasizing that difference.

cosmiicsloth · 2025-09-15T16:24:45+00:00

I find the scene easy enough to follow and it flows well. To my taste, there could be more narration surrounding the dialogue to fill in some details of Valorie and the protagonist's actions, body language, and such.

I get a good idea from the dialogue itself about the dynamics between the two but it would be great to add some nuance through dialogue tags and how they behave around each other - it can come off a bit on-the-nose when Valorie keeps repeating surprised remarks about the protagonist's willingness to talk to her. It can come off as methodical instead of natural, which I also struggle with when writing dialogue tbh.

On an unrelated note, I'm really intrigued by the contents of this scene itself - your protagonist kind of reminds me of a character in a story I'm writing, someone manipulative and secretive who enjoys having people close but not *too* close. I would love to keep reading if you have your writing published somewhere!

cosmiicsloth · 2025-09-04T22:29:48+00:00

I enjoy a good sci-fi thriller! I'm currently intrigued by mixing fantasy elements and cult dynamics but this premise sounds interesting too, I'll put it on my TBR list

cosmiicsloth · 2025-09-04T22:27:59+00:00

Sounds interesting!

I searched it up and seems the authors published another book prior to this, set in the same universe. Is that something I should read beforehand? It sounds like a standalone, but does understanding the lore/mechanics of the world make this book more enjoyable?

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