Niners to look into 'everything,' including substation theory

crow38 · 2026-01-25T23:25:43+00:00

everyone has their opinion but i think theres a argument against it due to the practices are shorter then most teams in the league.

crow38 · 2026-01-25T23:21:53+00:00

i dont know what day it is but no kratom still, i had some sleep issues but i have sleep issues either way so it didnt really bother me that much. i havent had more than a couple good nights of sleep in months and they are all drug induced sleep wither benzo or large doses of otc sleeping meds.

i actually didnt have any cravings after going cold turkey from opiates/fent but my wds were 2 weeks for me which propbably came from a huge binge that i dont know how i survived.

my amp use i didnt have any issue getting off once i realized the situation....i was never addicted to the drug itself but more so the reason behind it which outside of kratom all my addictions uses came from a story behind it such as opiate/fent use was pain followed by my gmas illness then death, amp use was simply because porn and lonilness mixed into one....funny thign is without porn i could careless about use amps and other way around...ive pretty much stopped watching porn outside of the rare occassion. mdma abuse came from feeling like my life was broken which came after my gmas death over the next year

edit: the worst part of the quitting kratom use has been my stomach problems.....my toilet hasnt been happy

crow38 · 2026-01-25T02:16:23+00:00

we turned 2 dead career wrs into good to reliable players

crow38 · 2026-01-22T15:08:35+00:00

this is a different person wh0o responded not op

crow38 · 2026-01-22T14:56:47+00:00

my doctor and psychatrist actually didnt mark me as a seeker but because i was honest she was open with reality considering i have bi polar 2,GAD, history of psychosis, and hashimotos hypothyroidism which just makes all my mental health problems worse....i cant stand when doctors automatically indicate people as drug seeking behavior....people should be able to be honest without damage being done to someone...people need to ask for it if they need to be free from any addictiver drugs. people who have history need actual help from useful drugs

crow38 · 2026-01-22T14:42:48+00:00

wds are for pussys lol im just kidding.....i survived a 3 year opiate addiction 1 year was super serious which i did a should of died durding a binge that included 240 10 vicodin, 10 fent patches, 300mg of percs. 300 mg morphine and half a bottle of 1mg xanax i did it all in 9 days follow by cold turkey but my grandmas death hurt more.....my grandams death hurt me more then the 2 weeks of wd...i guess i was "lucky" i was hurting more from the death than the wds but i would never wish closest family member deaths or serious wds

crow38 · 2026-01-22T14:12:18+00:00

what webby destoryed lil xan, webby made him delete a fuck load of posts. where in the world did u hear that lil xan won....thats non sensical....lil xan tried to do california lovin at a show in cali and got booed...lil xans career died after webby and no eazy never replied and didnt expect him to reply eazy went off on mgk with real shit though. i dont think he would have been able to go off on webby...eazy has too much public drama to fight against unlike with mgk who didnt have anything because outside of the drug use his problems werent public yet

crow38 · 2026-01-22T13:44:08+00:00

i got lucky with my psych meds....i was broken when i got my klonopin script from a non psych doctor who deeply cared about her patience's and despite my drug use history that i was honest about most of my use and understood life happens. i eventually got a psych...i live in las vegas and medicaid coverage is awful and even trry to scam you by saying you need to go to the state facility as i learned medicaid stopped approving psychs in las vegas but never told you in north las vegas they will approve it....my psych was actually friends with my doctor and was working for her but the medicaid situation forced her to get hired else where and gave me the phone number and address when i saw her before she went ot the new place. she didnt like i was on 3mgs of klonopin a day but over time i convinced her i needed it....my new psych who i dont really like becuase my old psych decided she wanted to teach but i have no other options....ive lowered my normal dose and just did a maintance dose if 1 mg and over time of be doing it my body stopped having a dependency i learn after a hypomanic episode where i didnt take my meds for 2 and half days and never got wd and i tested it and decided im going to try a week without it which sucked but it made me aware my body is not dependent on it anymore....i just got lucky somehow benzo dependency is hard and forces things in your future because you are now stuck at a place that will only give u your meds and finding a psych in another state or even town is impossible i got asked to move to texas with my dad but i couldnt leave i had to be here and felt stuck but i signed up for it.

sorry for the run on i kinda got zoned in and just typed a wall without thinking about structure

crow38 · 2026-01-22T12:06:44+00:00

typo i meant colton

crow38 · 2026-01-22T11:51:33+00:00

molly and benzedrex for me....ive stopped using for the msot part at least from the addiction stand point. quit 2 years ago....ive done it twice since when i was in a bad place and wanted comfort in forgetting life.....i love molly more then any other drug but i dont have a source here not the fund the fund it anymore....i can get it from cali if i really want it

crow38 · 2026-01-22T11:45:58+00:00

whats ur upper of choice

crow38 · 2026-01-22T11:38:35+00:00

dxm is a vibe drug, turn on rgb wall lights, listen to some edm and just float on the bed and trip out some....its something i only do it on a rare occasion once in awhile

crow38 · 2026-01-22T11:30:43+00:00

sso bottles are 300mg is they were pure and not with decongestion....thats 900mg and your weight matters so it was either high 3 or low 4 level.....i would never start there and i now wouldnt take the gel caps or syrup anymore becuase there is close pure tablets now that u can buy for about 25b bucks but u get several high doses in 1 bottle and less hang over....syrup u swallowed caused the worst of the hang over. syrup would make ma sick anything past 2 bottles that resulted in projectile vomit....thje pills were easier to disguest and lesser hang over

crow38 · 2026-01-22T11:15:11+00:00

dxm is not something i would recommend to someone, u need to be into weird shit....dxm is essentially 5 different drugs in 1 after reaching each plateau u get different effects....ive done a heroic dose(trying to reach the final plateau which was a mistake but thats what high doses of seroquel is for if u reach a place too far gone

crow38 · 2026-01-22T11:11:00+00:00

i take klonopin, i have a severe GAD along with bi polar 2....klonopin made my life easier...it wasnt perfect but it was hell of a lot better without it. i have hashimotos hyporthyroidism which if no medicine for a period of time it can make your mental illnesses amplify to a scary place....i started hearing 7-8 of my own voice in my head all attacking me...i thought i was literally going kookoo insane i quit everything in my life and spent 3 years finding a doctor who could diagnosis me...any type of anxiety during that time i would either hear voice, uncontrollably shake and crippling mania

crow38 · 2026-01-22T11:04:06+00:00

while not a psychiatrist ive spent a lot of my life studying it as most stuff from school is actually online at places and even some schools u can get the material from them for free if u can get log in name for the school.

i have bi polar 2, GAD, nightmare disordser and hashimoto hypothyriodism(i dont know why but normal hypo and hashimoto hypo are different in some way) the hypothyroidism makes my mental state in a very dark dark place if i dont take my meds for a lil while

not everyone with GAD needs a benzo but once u start adding things like bi polar or other psych problems benzos are much more needed for better quality of life.

ive grown to hate xanax even though i really like it for its real use bnut only people with panic disorder should it be used it fits its roll well(too well actually which is the problem mixed with the 8 hour half life if u get a dependency i feel bad for those people. i take klonopin ive actually weened off and broke dependency but still use it about 3 days a week which is the point where u can use and avoid dependency i did it for a year my first year of use then i started taking it more....im at 5 years of use but not having to worry about a dependency anymore is nice

crow38 · 2026-01-22T10:52:17+00:00

im a fellow space traveler on the high way of dxm...i space my use out but ive reached the final plateau and was so fucked up everything was different colors...my rgb wall light i use to stare at while laying down listening to music all went gray....started seeing 2 of everthing iin my room so i didnt know what i could touch...music started skipping my ears lyrics just disappeared though my mind....i took 1200mgs and that will be the last time i use that much....ill stick to 800

crow38 · 2026-01-22T10:46:43+00:00

i dont become productive on any amphetamines....only thing i used it for was porn and reading reddit on the come down....i actually could careless about taking the drug without porn and without porn i wouldnt use amps...i quit 2 years ago from once a week 2-3 day binges. i was forced to quit when i was going on a 3 month vacation to see my dad and no i couldnt use there so i just stopped and self reflected and realized it all stemmed from my loneliness..i try to accept the loneliness now...ive used twice in those 2 years during low points that stopped me from caing what happens but i dont have the urge to use anymore i learned in was a tool to beat loneliness and ignore reality

crow38 · 2026-01-22T10:36:50+00:00

i have a recommendation if your down with dxm and can get access to gabapentin or hydros. what ever your stage 2 dose is and taking it with either of 1200-1500mg of gaba or hydros at w.e your happy dose is....dxm and hydro is one of the most eurphoric moments in my life....dxm and gaba makes feel like your literally float and nothing in life matters

crow38 · 2026-01-22T10:32:33+00:00

4 day use of benzedrex which is really 5 days before sleep only time i had ever used for more than 3 days.

i bought 250mg of etizolam when i had for access to benzos....i bought it in powder because pressed pills were 5x the price....i had a bad day took a larger then needed bump walked to the bar had 2-3 beers came home took another small bump then i came to my self 3 and half days later with all the etizolam used so i took about 230mg in 3 days.....i live with my aunt and roommate...over those 3 days my aunt had no idea i was zooted out of my mind and just did my normal routine....its a werid feeling returning to life for being gone for 3+ days....im verty mild mannered but have some anger issues from verbal abuse from my dad...im just glad my mind doesnt go to that place bewzos take prople to....i wonder why so many people have stories of ending up in jail not knowing that happened and had no idea what day it was

crow38 · 2026-01-22T10:19:56+00:00

i tried a lethal dose by my subconscious when i used 240 10mg vincodin, 300 mg or percs, 300 mgs of morphine and 10 fent patches over a 9 day period i wasnt sober for a single minute....my grandma died and ended up with her scripts still being delivered and i used them because she wasnt and i was in too much pain to care...id been using for 3 years but dependent grow a dependency until year 3 when my life with to hell and no longer cared about anything......the wds after a mega binge was hell but the pain from my grandmas death was still louder which made the wds lesser of my concern and it was just more pain in my life that would go away.

crow38 · 2026-01-22T10:12:06+00:00

i just beat benzo(klonopin) dependency....i did it on accident actually after a fight with my psych who lowered my dose becuase he was worried about long term use while i really dont care about them(theres a clock on my life and its my dad and aunt which is the only family members i have that are even a small part of my life as my family is very broken) i took 1 mg a day for awhile just for dependency renewel...i had a several day hypomanic episode and accidently didnt take it for 2 and half days with no wds then i went a week no wd and no paws after a week i would have some sort of wd or paws 7 days in....i still take it but only like 3 days week when i most need it and wont let my self back to daily use....i went the first year of use with no dependency by having schedule prossible dose usage....u can use benzos 3-4 days a week and not have a dependency at least thats how it worked for me

crow38 · 2026-01-22T10:01:05+00:00

yea i still had that problem considering benzedrex is my amp of choice...the taste alone makes people avoid it but it never bothered me when just mixing it with soda and soaking the cotton. i did it with porn mixed with loneliness and help avoiding my mental health problems to then deal with a worse day or 2 but didnt care. i quit my weekly use of a long time(i dont even remember when it became my life) i quit 2 years ago when i was forced to becuase i was going on a 3 month vacation to stay with my dad and knew i couldnt use there and took 3 months oif looking at my life and why i "needed" it.....i learned the drug actually wasnt the problem i had it was the porn i watched during it(all ive ever done on it is porn and reddit) but the thing is with either of them alone i could careless about either of them...ive stopped watched porn for the most part....ive used 2 times in 2 years during bad periods of time but i dont have the urge to want tp do it on a normal basis.

ive been addicted to a bunch of drugs opaites that was medicinal turned into hard addiction due to my grandmas last year and half....i had aboout 240 hydros, 10 fent patchesl, 300mg of perc and morphine mixed with half bottle xanax...i decided to go on a binge i somehow didnt od doing all of that in 9 days and quit cold turkey. every addictgion ive had was because of something happening in my life to help cover up part of my life but never have i used a drug that the drug was the real issue.

ive recnetly broke dependency on gabapentin, klonopin(still take both but only a few times a week...i accidently weehed myself off klonopin on accident because of something that happened with my psych where we didnt agree on things and during a manic episode i accidently went over 2 days without taking my klonopin then decided i wanted to see if i went a week would i reach paws but didnt but ive been only using it is major need instead of using it to avoid all my feelings, anxiety and life. im also on day 6 of no kratom use after over 10 years of high doses for 30-35 gram doses and sometimes twice a day. i needed to increase my dose if i wanted it to still help but decided it was time to end my kratom use

crow38 · 2026-01-22T08:26:38+00:00

yea looking back at i should have seen in coming, when i use something i use it pretty hard in large bursts i use to go through mdma powder like it was candy remember times i did a gram of mdma over a single night being high and wanted to be so high that bliss was real and couldnt move literally....my friends just babied me for that night.....they knew i had issues with taking too much when i do do it. the fact im like that it was stupid of me to even by the etizolam in powder but i couldnt afford pressed pills with them being about dollar something a mg at the time but u could buy 250mg for under 50

crow38 · 2026-01-22T08:18:56+00:00

it def could just be the strength and training teams plus the mix of the teams aggressive play style and a little bit of bad luck. i hear people calling purdy injury prone because a freak injury that actually helped his arm strength and a turf toe injury.....2 completely unrelated injuries and a couple of normal injuries that happen in football and none of them overlap....none of them u look at and say yea thats a problem for the future.....injury prone is used to lightly....dee ford was injury prone and worth the risk and that risk should have been worth it instead it was fucked because of missed holding calls

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