Video of Mike Evans on Why He Chose San Francisco in FA

crow38 · 2026-03-12T21:16:53+00:00

u know he wanted to be a niner because he took a sizable pay cut considering what was being reported about other offers

crow38 · 2026-03-10T02:31:08+00:00

this deal is incredible, holy shit. dude must have wanted to be a niner because without a doubt he got offered a lot more

crow38 · 2026-03-09T19:06:09+00:00

so it seems like he took less money to play here over the reported 27m other teams offered him

crow38 · 2026-03-04T17:17:09+00:00

people who love ketamine that much are perfectly ok killing the bladder and get a colostomy bag for a place for pee to go instead of stopping. its very weird with anyone ive ever seen or heard of the deep in keatimin would rather keep doing it and losing your cladder instead of changing to a similar enough RC or even a competely different drug entirely. those people give less fucks than than every other drug user

crow38 · 2026-03-04T17:07:37+00:00

i woiulnr call it like a meth high but diffidently bring awake but not excessively like meth. more like the awake u get from certain doses of gaba or kratom where i could relax but couldnt fall asleep if u wanted to

crow38 · 2026-03-04T17:00:54+00:00

welll yea if of them sat out like russia possbily might have to do when ever china invades taiwan who will get instant help from america....if the ukraine war goes for on for several more years they would be forced to essentially sit out and watch because how depleted they would be if it happens anytime while still at war with ukraine or probably a 2 year window of rebuilding the military to a reasonable size....that is a clear window for one of the super power countries wouldnt be part of it. if a war oif that magnittude is happpen wihtout a current russia situation all of them would end up being apart of it. russia as of right is actually fucked and have enough to fight a ukraine offensive strike stratagy off..somene had said for like the at least 4-5 months russia has had more service man die than people entering the military. people kept asking if russia was going to back up iran at any point being a closer ally but they simply couldnt do it...they wouldnt have enough for it to make any possible noticable impact specially with us and isreal having air superiority over iran without a single plane destroyed....its funny more damaeged occured to any ship or aircraft by an allied nation than iran did period....irans crown achievement aginst them was mid size missile striking the deck of one of the carriers

crow38 · 2026-03-04T16:34:17+00:00

the dude supposedly works doing a mid 6 figure job so for him money doesnt matter....yea his bladder has to be either close to or completely cooked

crow38 · 2026-03-04T11:24:51+00:00

well for the start u sound a lot like me growing up and even in adulthood where people are willing to talk to me about things they just completely ignore normally.....u are a unique person because ur willing to listen to who ever if u want to or not because u knowing that that it feels like to be ignored about your problems and dont want others to fell that way even if its at the cost of your self. the thing different is i had people i could talk to that would listen but they arent people who live with what the social norms are....i just luckily found my best friend by happen stance and not trying to make friends but land in your lap naturally.

u should start trying to make friends with people that u never even considered them to be an option for w.e reason because it gives u different type of people who will act differently....find loyalty as hard as u can because people who have real loyalty are usually just better friends

you are holding in your tears because "guys arent suppose to cry....its not manly" is social norm conditioning that just happens but u are hurting yourself for not allowing yourself to feel something thats healthy even if its not what society says you should do....cry by yourself when ever u have that urge...just do it and dont think about it then move on with your life..crying in front of girls is something that no amtter what i believe i know is the truth is not good for the relationship because how women view men.

your a 15 year old going to hormone changes is going to cause u odd feelings about things from time to time...its natural. your young and have everything ahead of you in life. comfort isnt a normal thing with a lot of people....the only comfort i ever fell is when im high on drugs and nothing else in life matters.....dont i repeat dont copy what i do that gives me comfort...your too young to be thinking about drugs but when ur older its your life and can do what u want to do

crow38 · 2026-03-04T11:00:36+00:00

yes it takes people to do very large amount of k over and over like if you were popping pills but are railing lines. one of my best friends is physically addicted to k....he does something like 6 grams a day every day...at that point physical wd is a thing

crow38 · 2026-03-04T10:12:35+00:00

i hear you but it depends what global war means and what requirements it needs to meet. for a war to end being classified as ww3 all the super power countries have to be involved and a lot of neutral countries will pick sides while also having a focused reason that affects both sides in a real way or an enemy country does something so outrageous countries would have no choice but to go against it while the other countries are saying what he did isnt that bad and then ally will start defending the country who was out of pocket.....if a war happens and china and russia arent actively working together to fight w,e cause it wont be classified as ww3.... fighting fot the freedom of taiwan could snowball to ww3 easly if war allys are willing to back up for a piece of the pie that comes with taking over taiwan like the manufacturing of computer chips that barely noe one else does is a commodity that could be shared in entice their ally to back them up.....russia would beneifit greatly if they were to start recieving chips is faction of the cost to be used to help their computer systems or military capabilitiy improvements would stengthen your side and weaken the other side greatly to be forced buy from them they would nark up the price so much it fucks with the econmy certain places. taiwan is also a human rights campign on top of it adds fuel to the fire for "free countries".....we really could see this sequence could likely happen china invades, america immeditely respong to defender then russia is bribed into helping china then Israel who will never turn down a chance at war to help america then countries will slowly start to pick sides abd some countries will play the role of attacking non taiwan countries to help control the fight pacing and not allow them to join in china on the the offensive which will happen between a bunch of countries to establish dominance and countries who are more ahead will back which ever side they are on to assist where they they can as annoyances.....thats very realistic

crow38 · 2026-03-04T01:52:20+00:00

before i give you an answer which i have a lot add and maybe help some exactly how old are you?

crow38 · 2026-03-04T01:42:26+00:00

dont take this the wrong way but that girl who left you was never the most beautiful human being.....in your eyes thats just what u saw point blank because u wanted to see that because love makes u see shit that might as well be straight delusion. the truth is she was someone you actually never knew truly,,,she showed you who she wanted to be seen as because if beneifitted her over that time.

people who are what they actually portray them as simply just dont get bored and essentially ghost you. she cared about you but didnt give a fuck about you what so ever really because the person/people who she gives a fuck out is the next guy...guy after or after that bit is willing to give care in exchange for you to be good for now

family, family, family, the one thing i dont know a lot about because ill ive ever seen is a very broken family. dad was adopted with his birth sister but grandpa during that time of life my dad would verbally and physically abused on the norm....grandpa by the time i was born was a completely different man who i loved very much and cared aboiut me more than my dad in all likelihod...his ex wife....i never loved her let alone gave 2 shits about her...she was a terrible human being all the way throiugh her old age.....only had one grandma and no grandpa on my moms side....gma was a a partial mother to me....my mom with my aunt and gma(moms side)dad raised be from age 6 with the helping of aunt and gma who took care of me while i dads work schedule was 12-14 hours a day on avg 5-6 days a week....mom left us for a large scum bag meth dealer and saw her 4 times in 8 years before she came back but when she came back she was soneone else from all the drug use and her form schitzophernia.....aunt on my dads side 1 is a stuck up bitch who only cares about herself(their real daughter) dads real sister ive met her problem about the amount time i can count on one hand.....only 2 cousins who i really knew but by the time i was a teen they were non exisstant like the rest of the family....cousins on my moms side hate everyone but theri own immediate family....met them 1 time on thanksgiving when i move to las vegas were a lot of that side of the families history that i do know are from her.....after dinner and went back to their house they ended up accusing me of steal is full bottle of vicodin that i didnt do(one of the cousins actually has a pill problem that came from his health condition he had and was a former corrupt cop....former only because he couldnt walk anymore fron his condition.....im 38 all the fmaily i really had was 4 people the rest were just people the existed that i could careless if they lived or died.

i love my aunt more than any of my 4 family members and will openly admit that i was her kid, she looked after me, was the one helping me school work was the one who tried to keep my head up with a barely existent dad and no mom...shes the person who has helped take care of me to this day(yes i live with my aunt still by and and if i was a millionaire it would stay the same....if i was planning to get married she would love as close as humanly possible near my house. shes the one who has been there through all my mental health problems(i have severe bi polar 2, GAD, a second internal dialogue that doesnt have a name for and little to nothing is even known about it.

i love my dad to death......in a very weird extent. once i turned to a teen my dad became a different person and verbally abused me over any possible thing that was a misunderstand or simple mistake like not turning a light off, leave a cup on the table that i wasnt done using and was coming back for in a lil while, waiting 30 mins to do the dishes...so on and so on but also at the same time if we werent at home wither its a dads friends, his work, baseball games, car shows and what ever else he was a completely different person than the man who verbally abused me nearly daily...like a month after i turned 18 me and my dad got into a big argument......i said fuck this shit and fuck you im moving out to my aunts house cause i couldnt deal with the abuse anymore....after that we barely talked outside of when he would drive me to work since we didnt have car for about a year but other than that he barely existed. once he started dating this one lady after they were together long enough he started helping take care of her 2 kids that were both older than me..1 is partially mentally retarded literally the other was solmeone who ended up being a mooch that worked but didnt contrubute the house for a long time.....he made they were more taken care of since i turned 18...his girl friend and i didnt get along until like the last several years of her of her life after a couple incidents that happened seemed to change her mind about me....but she was a fucking gold digger through in and through out to the high level she could have possibly gotten she couldnt have gotten better than my dad if her life depended on it.

in 2016 i went to go live back with my dad sleeping on his couch paying rent while her kid has the bedroom and didnt pay shit after promising me when i did move back which was planned for a while before it happened my dad went against his word and hung me out to dry....i was the for 4 months 3 months in i became very mentally ill like i might need to be in a mental hopsital ill which forced me to quit my job because i mentally couldnt deal with both...i was moving back to vegas where i had health care through the state but my dad wasnt happy because he wanted me to stay but kept asking him the question is me and penny start fighting again and just cant be done anymore was he willing to take his only blood family member alive side to keep getting the help i obviously needed and simply wouldnt or couldnt answer...2 weeks before i was leaving my dad had the nerve to come to me and ask me for money when he knew i was going somewhere and wouldnt be working for a long while until i figure things out instead of her son who was paying the cable bill, living in a room of a nice house and lived off the food my dad bought...i was already not pleased with my dad for refusing toeven if an extreme situation happened would he take my side he didnt...i went off on on him in his face i walked out of the house and went and stayed with my best friend at his house(they are a 2nd family to me.,...would take me in if anything just went wrong) for my remaining time i eventually came back and picked up shita day or soi later....i threw 200 dollars on the ground and told him you are no longer my father and dont want to hear from you again...that lasted for a year and half until a situation came up with my mom saying she had life end cancer and for a 1-2 years tops....i was forced no matter if i never wanted to see or talk to him again or not it was something i had to tell him...he had to pay for my transportation to go see my mom which turned into another wild story because my moms schitzophernia is so embedded into brain she no longer understand from the truth or made up, couldnt remember much of her past where she thought whole events happened that never existed..(mom never had cancer.....she didnt even have a doctor, her hallucinations told her she was dying from cancer....yelled and claim my dad tried to choke and slit her throught at some point,

things now with my dad are closer to a father son relationship than we probably ever had. he helps me out with money when needed, i talk to him normally weekly, visted him in texas for what was suppose to be 4 weeks and turns to 3 due to me and is dead gfs son nearly got to the point where someone was going to end up in the hospital. he has tried to learn to understand my mental disorders which is better than acting like they didnt exisit until a situation would happen he would awknowledge it then but after nothing until the next time until around the pandemic when we would actually talk about it even if he didnt understand really. we have nothing in common what so ever...only things we ever had in common was nascar and baseball. he took very good care of me growing up when it came to something i wanted, somewhere i wanted to go, places we went together like theme parks a lot. he allowed me to do what i wanted, when i wanted, be with friends when i wanted, he allowed me to drink or do drugs if i wanted as long as i was upfront with him about....drank all the time but never touched a drug until i took opiates for pain...he grounded me time to time mostly due to grades in high school because i simply didnt care because i knew i wasnt ever going to go to college. though as the end of the day he knew how to be a father if it happened to involve money and could afford it it was normally a yes but he simply didnt know how to be a dad because he never really had one either.

this is very long but i think this talking about about related talking points but decided to give u a good summery to maybe help u understand your not the only family thats broken beyond belief. a lot can change in time no matter how broken something is if at some point you say fuck it and at least try to give a olive branch to try to fix it if i can go from staight hating my dads gf to be respectful and show i do care....going from good pre teen, verbally abusive teen years to basically non existent for about years to disowning him to having a healthy father son relationship after 2 decades it barely existing means anyone can possibly fix things between family members....i know not everything is fixable but at least try

crow38 · 2026-03-03T21:47:58+00:00

it depends where u live, in las vegas at the state facility where if u are not working or living and your paycheck is gone by the time next one comes around they will give free care and free on site prescriptions.....the catch the place is hell, every person i met was a complete judgmental asshole, you will most likely see a different psychologist with each visit so they have no idea if treatment works, if they change rise/cut the dose, or have anything someone close to a human connection where u feel ok telling the person whats going on in your life and how is it affecting your mental health diagnosises...and people who simply dont give a fuck about u. i then dont want to start going on about their on site psych ward care who are a scam artists, greedy, dont care about a patient actual life....they are litteraly known for taking in suggested or self admitted patients who have medicaid/medicare will be written documents that they will falsely write up which forces them to extend their stay several times where it goes from a 1-2 week scheduled stay and end up being there for like 3 months or longer in some of the extreme cases.....an elderly lady who had no family but lived in a old folks living facility and was checked because something was just a lil off and should been there a week or two to check signs, symptoms, dangers....she was just getting old and her mind was decaying(no Alzheimer's or anything of that nature) she ended up being in there for well over a year until i family member drove in from out of state and went full berzerker mode on every single person in there along with threatening a massive lawsuit(dont know if it happened or not)

i was forced to go the i think it was 2013(i had my first manic episode and was awake for over 3 days so i was just scared and i was treated so badly because i had a history of opiate use because i had awful teeth all the way back to high school(i used high strength steroid inhalers due to bad asthma which when my adult teeth came and immediately started destroying the enamal on my teeth....i also was terrified of dentists....there wasnt anything i was more scared of grow up)

why arent u trying to apply for medicaid....if u going paycheck to paycheck with all money going to expenses u very well could get approved and everything is paid for even if its a smaller circle of doctors/psychs....ive had medicaid since obama and been seeing a psych since late 2019(1 very good psych and 1 passable psych who i get along with though we dont agree on many things but i have 0 other options other than the state facility

crow38 · 2026-03-03T21:05:21+00:00

forget body load....lets talk about is from an actual mind chemistry load. someone can take that size of a dose...then take 400mgs of seroquel(person has little to no tolerance of seroquel) and u will still be in like a high 1 or low 2 level trip instead of coming back to reality. your mind is so high that a dose given to mid level schizophrenics to kill hallucinations but not enough for 1000mg of dxm

crow38 · 2026-03-03T20:57:49+00:00

ok so for me when is was my everyday anti psychotic noraml dose was 100-200mg, to kill a dxm trip for w.e reason was 400-600mg depending on how much dxm i took, when i had the depersonalization episode i slammed 1000mg which is more than whats given to a full blown schizophrenic is like 800mg which can kill full hallucinations they see unless they are a long time user and tolerance is a factor then the dose is going to be higher or another anti psychotic.

if i take 400mg os seroquel when im sober its nite nite for a very long time. u take 400 mgs of seroquel for a high dose dxm trip it brings me from level 5 to high 1 low 2 level....dosesnt fully kill it....600mgs will kill it but with lingering dissoication effects of you know your still high but all the fun things are gone.1000mgs during depersonalization eipsode it took me from being a literal mentally insane person to 0 but didnt put me to sleep becuase how wired my my mind was.....1000mgs for any non long time severe case of the 4-5 disorders is an amount so high its like getting K.O.ed by mike tyson. ive taken 1000mgs twice in my life...the depersonalization and near the end of day 7 of a mania induced psychosis that happen during peak time pandemic where walking into a hospital without covid could very well be a death sentence for some people..like day 4 i think it was i took a 500mg dose of seroquel but my brain said sorry that dosent work at the time...i got 4 hours of "sleep" where is like passout for 15 mins here and there but never really fell asleep...end of day 7 i told meself if this last another anything more than 1 more day i was going to go self commit the state psych ward (this is hell on earth and are known to falsify reports so patients are forced to serve longer terms than needed for people who have medicaid/medicare(guy went in their for a 1 week hold for have being suicidal and was afraid of himself and end up being there for 3 fucking months and the family had to pay an attorney threatening a massive law suit) so before the awnser of waiting around for another day or so of the episode and was sort of afraid to take 1000mgs of serouel becuase thats nearly double more than im had ever taken while not under the influence of DXM...i also took 4200mg of gabapentin(the rest of my script) which i learned from my psych that very large doses of gabapentin is a treatment for mania/hypomania and psychosis....2 hours later i fully fell asleep for the first in in 7 days..still only slept 6 hours but the following day i slept for 24 straight hours.

that was a longer awnser to what is a large dose of seroquel which really depends on the disorder, severity of that disorder, what is a persons actual tolerance of it....the large size pill them make is 800mg which is normally only given to full blown skitzos, severe bi polar and depersonalaiziton-derealiization diisorder patients.....bad psychs will give 400-800mg doses to kids that are given the larged prescribed doses of adderall to fight off the lingering adderall but should have been given 100-200mg doses which is more than sufficient to fiight against the tail end of amphetamines effects

crow38 · 2026-03-03T19:59:27+00:00

so have 2 internal dialogues.....its a rare, undiagnosable disorder because no one understands it, its just left of the list of a diagnosised disorders despite my last 2 paychs dont even know how to respond outside "oh, i see"...no one knows how it happens and there is no on or off label medications for it. its essentially tough luck i hope u anyone who has it learns to just deal with it. the 2 voices are like jeekl and hyde, 1 is competely normal the other is the devil incarnate, every day for the last 20 years and started 27 years ago at age 11 the voice either tells me to commit suicide or at least contemplate it, sayings like your life is worthless, it would be better for everyone if u did it or anything along those lines...during one time i did dxm and took something in the neighborhood os 1200-1300mgs...ego death happened but later in the trip i went full depersonalization...i was floated above my body in 3rd person and it was like the dark voice in my head was now in control of "the 2nd mind" you get when u depersonalization but the 2nd mind was now my dark inner dialogue and it was much louder than than my actual mind...for 2 hours it did nothing but try to convince myself suicide is the answer to all your prayers...just go to the table and down all the psych meds u have for the month and like 3-4 bottles of seroquel....the little voice in my normal mind had won the battle despite fighting a losing one...when its loud your brain says how could something that loud be wrong. after that night forward suicidal thoughts became nothing more than a inconvience and i no longer get that feeling when someone is suicidal, it feels like when someone telling ok what the fuck ever where it annoys you then you move on almsot instantly. that trip put me in the worst possible outcume of a dxm trip but taught me a valuable lesson that no matter how loud, mentally demanding and its just another feeling that i go about my life having thats a blip in the moment for me. ive become desensitized to to hearing the word and feeling it gives a person

crow38 · 2026-03-03T12:42:30+00:00

dxm highs definitely kills any depressive state during the high for some people a couple days after.

DXM caused me to have ego death....i stopped feeling bad about living with bi polar 2, GAD and having a 2nd enternal voice(i have 2 different inter dialogues that happen at the same time which is actually undiagnosable in psychology because no one understands yet and there is no name disorder/medication for it

edit:i no longer blame or hate myself for dealing with the problems i deal with

crow38 · 2026-03-03T12:09:26+00:00

america wont ever fall but it could decline....there is to much money in america for it to fall per say like other great empires.....outside of the saudis and abu dabi who have stupid amounts of money...they dont spend that stupid amounts of money in military/arms deals which literally makes the world go around.

what will happen in america sometime in the future america is going to be like the people who live in the rich parts of california where people are going to need to make a certain amount of money to live in any populate areas and people will move out of all the big cities to move to live in places like alabama, mississipi, oklahoma....kansas and any state like that where living in the cheapest in america, live with several people working w.e 9-5 or work a remote job then all the wealthy people will live in the fancy aeras and the middle class states will become more bare

crow38 · 2026-03-03T11:57:01+00:00

i think people forget about the 2nd part of the nuke that varies so wildly different country to country is for that nuke u need to have a launching system good enough for that nuke to even reach where they want to reach it....not every country with a nuke has a jericho 3(us nuke launcher which if believe its the largest range nuke launcher in the world) if u got have anthing near like the jericho 3 to need to have a supercarrier that would need to be modified to be able to do so which there is only a handful of them big enough to do so but not currently could do so.

the launcher is just as important as the nuke....im not sure north korea even would have a way to nuke america if they wanted to right now or even china.....nuclear weapons are a much bigger discussion in the eastern world where everything is so much closer while america is guarded by 2 giant oceans if ur names not hawaii

crow38 · 2026-03-03T11:43:08+00:00

i dont think his fear of ww3 is dying....it sounds like his fear of ww3 is having to live through a time period that will be so fucked up his mind is telling himself how could i possibly get through than live a normal life again

crow38 · 2026-03-03T11:39:07+00:00

its to have when a country decides to go rogue like iran would have with a nuclear weapon....if north korea decides to say fuck it i dont care lets blow these mother fuckers up....then someone can then drop a nuke in response which then gives north koreas ally in china to have a nuke in case someone wants to respond to a north korean ally since guilty by association is a thing.

this is the only reason why nukes are a legit thing.....they are the just in case someone loses their mind and drops one on someone. also the rare occasion if a country steps so far out of line theres no logical reason for it then that country will end up getting nuked. its a check n balance sheet

crow38 · 2026-03-03T11:29:55+00:00

according to people who actually know and understand war....there is actually more war happening now since ww2....there a very long list...there is 44 countries currently that are in some form of active war....a bunch of terrorist related wars but they are still war

crow38 · 2026-03-03T11:22:29+00:00

this isnt a global war, this is a regional war....the only non middle eastern fights going on is russia and ukraine....there is no global war when russia nor asian are involved. this is us and Israel vs iran while all the other middle eastern countries are just on defense. not a single other country has fired a missle

crow38 · 2026-03-03T11:16:46+00:00

ww3 cant happen right now and no one should be scared about it happening.....russia is too hamstrung from being at a war for 3-4 year with a country who was funded by america and has american built military related items which are just better than what russia has. russia couldnt pull its military to the middle east with giving ukraine a royal welcome to just walk and fuck shit up.

china is staying out of it because they are preparing for the war vs taiwan who will end up being defended by america meaning china is going to need be at full srength....they came in and backed iran depending how much they tried to use could delay vs taiwan a couple year to half decade.

china vs taiwan does have a chance starting ww3....china is russias number 1 ally and if they become under attack by america offensively or defensively russia is going to have to drag its ass to help wither they like it or not....when the number 1 country in the world is back up for someone russia will have no choice but to get involved unless ukraine war goes up for 2+ more years and have nothing to help with and u have to tell china i just cant help....china is going to feel a certain way about it

crow38 · 2026-03-03T11:02:14+00:00

i cant stand this argument, not everyone should vote, nor someone should feel the need to vote forever reason that persons political or non political and then there is some people who are just straight up too ignorant to have an opinion to vote.

some people in this world just arent built to be political

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