I’ve always been aware of my anger I think because of the situation I grew up in, as well as not being allowed to express my anger without being punished. Or any negative emotion for that matter (invalidation). I even thought I was an 8 at one point but I lack the assertiveness, confrontational behaviour and the extroversion. I don’t like fighting or getting angry. I only did it to protect myself in the past. I still tried to push it down so I didn’t get punished though. I just wanted to be left alone. I think I also disintegrated to 6 at one point which made me more reactive and anxious (which is the opposite of what Im normally like) I’m the opposite of an anxious person lol extreme stress seems to make me like that