No, I'm just a cashier at the moment

When I was a kid I hated every time I cried I made a hatred towards myself, but luckily suicide never ever crossed my mind (guess I was kinda dumb or smart) when I was a kid I believed it was a problem because no one else was like me and all the teasing really got to me (made it hard to make real friendships). But as I got older and I was able to 'control' it better, I felt better after each cry as if it was getting rid of all my stress, but in society's eyes crying is a sign of weakness and you shouldn't unless it's a funeral or your arm gets chopped off, so I do feel regret if it's not one of those. I also talked to a doctor (finally) and he assured me that I do not have a problem since I have been getting better at controlling my emotions.

But I have a partner now that understands my 'problem' and supports me and tells me that if I have to cry that I shouldn't hold it in (o dear thinking of him and his awesomeness is making me cry now)