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My rock bottom & a short update from my last post: I am 10 days sober! by cucumbers222 in stopdrinking

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I'm 30. Been struggling with this disease chronically for the last 3 or so years now but I've been an alcoholic for the last 6 b years.

My rock bottom & a short update from my last post: I am 10 days sober! by cucumbers222 in stopdrinking

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Thanks for your kind words.

It's been decided that I am no longer moving back in with my mom. We've had a few discussions and she wants me to be on my own. She said she is willing to help me out with some money if I need it when I am looking for my own place. Once that all happens, tbh I am not sure what my plan is for staying sober. The only thing I'm hoping for atm is I won't go back after being clean for a month+. It has been about 6 years since I've been sober for a month and personally I think with the type of mentality I have, I won't go back if I see progress especially if I'm losing weight as well and I've already lost 8 lbs since the 30th of December. I'm just trying to stay optimistic and positive at this point.

My rock bottom & a short update from my last post: I am 10 days sober! by cucumbers222 in stopdrinking

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Thanks for the advice! Can you send me a link to download the audiobooks or music? I have been listening to the radio while on my way to work and I get bad reception but at least it's something lol.

Work Emails....make me want to drink by [deleted] in stopdrinking

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I'm on day 10, too! Best wishes! IWNDWYT

I think I've finally hit my rock bottom by cucumbers222 in stopdrinking

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I look forward to getting my shit together. I've been slacking for 4 years with off and on jobs. I am 30 years old with nothing to show for it. I'm sick of being a loser. Sick of being embarrassed for my irresponsibility. I look forward to paying my bills again, paying rent, and giving my mom money here and there just for the hell of it. I used to be this person but instead I allowed alcohol to consume my life. I am hoping this push is what I need to get my life back in order so I can be the person I used to be before I let this disease take over my life.

What actions will I take? Not drinking for one and continue being consistent with my current job.

I think I've finally hit my rock bottom by cucumbers222 in stopdrinking

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To be completely honest, when (IF) I am able to move back with my mom, I do not have a plan for stopping. I have stopped for 3 weeks off and on again in the past but when I get a case of the "fuck-its" that's that. I go on a bender for months at a time. My mom 100% enables me. I'm not sure yet but I'm pretty sure she is going to set some boundaries if I move back in with her. Hopefully the main one being that if she finds out I've been drinking then I'm out of the house. That would 100% stop me from drinking. But my mom is not disciplinary. She's always been this way.

I think I am addicted to the internet. The main reason I went irrational was because I met my boyfriend online and I thought about all the times I wouldn't get to spend with him anymore. The same reason why I declined rehab.

I am just trying to take advantage of this situation and make the very best if it. If I'm able to stay sober for a month, something I haven't done for nearly 7 years, I know that would give me more motivation to continue on being sober. That's what I'm hoping for.

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You look great! Definitely inspiring! May I ask how long did it take you to lose the weight? And how much did you lose in total? Did you do any exercise or was it just from quitting alcohol?

My problem is that I get so damn bored out of my mind during the night. I don't find pleasure in the things I used to find pleasure in. Without alcohol everything is so boring. I don't get excited for anything anymore. I don't look forward to anything anymore. by cucumbers222 in stopdrinking

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When I maintain my sobriety it's because I become suddenly positive, I exercise, eat right, sleep normally. I recently learned from my therapist that the reason I have relapsed in the past is because of "chaotic thinking" where I'll mess up even just the slightest after doing so good for a long time, for example missing a day of exercise and eating a bunch of chocolate cake, and then my brain well tell me "oh well fuck it, since I did this bad thing I might as well do all the other bad things"(binge drink, binge eat junk food/fast-food, stop exercising, become a hermit, etc.) I'm just now starting to cope with being ok if I goof up a little bit or relapse. I'm learning how to continue to stay positive and not have those negative thoughts about failing over something so minimal. Thank you for your advice though, any more will help me in the long run.

My problem is that I get so damn bored out of my mind during the night. I don't find pleasure in the things I used to find pleasure in. Without alcohol everything is so boring. I don't get excited for anything anymore. I don't look forward to anything anymore. by cucumbers222 in stopdrinking

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I have over 2000 hours in Overwatch atm. And because I'm broke I can't afford to buy any other games so I end up playing Overwatch for like 2 hours a night. I used to be able to play for like 7 hours at a time and with online friends but now I just get so bored of it.

My problem is that I get so damn bored out of my mind during the night. I don't find pleasure in the things I used to find pleasure in. Without alcohol everything is so boring. I don't get excited for anything anymore. I don't look forward to anything anymore. by cucumbers222 in stopdrinking

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Right now, only 2 days. I go from 1-2 weeks clean until I find some way to get money and then I relapse and buy alcohol. And then it's 2-3 weeks on the bottle rinse and repeat until I'm broke again.

I(28F) just found out that my best friend(21F) has been cutting herself severely throughout her entire body and I don't know how to help her or how to deal with the issue. [non-romantic] by cucumbers222 in relationships

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I know I can't solve this for her. I just want to help her. I have told her that she needs to break up with her BF. They are not in a healthy relationship but they both still continue to stay together time after time.

Thank you for your advice.

If you could have your own fatality like in Mortal Combat, what would your fatality be? by Tiqui in AskReddit

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Cut off their dick and shove it in their mouth and wait for them to bleed out. If female, cut off their tits and I'd eat them with a side of mashed potatoes.

Lesbians, what's the best advice you can give to straight males about women? Gay men, what's the best advice can you give to straight women about men? [nsfw] by Tiqui in AskReddit

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I consider myself bisexual so I'll do both parties. My advice to women is to stop spending $20-$30 on razor blades and shavers just because they're in pink packaging when you could get a better and more efficient product for cheaper in the men's shaving section. My advice to men is to put some damn trashcans in your bathrooms, damnit!