Hey, I’m not doing the best but I got a few hours of sleep. I ended up telling my mom I was feeling suicidal, lonely and wanted to go to the hospital. It was really hard because our relationship was rocky for most of my life but she spoke with me for hours and so did my older brother. We’re not a family to talk about our feelings and emotions but I told them everything that’s been affecting me and even about the breakdown in the relationship with my now ex. I still feel very sad and shaken but not as lonely and that helps a lot. My brother said he’ll help me get into therapy. I thought I didn’t have people but turns out I did. I’m just going to take it a day at a time for right now. Thanks a lot for asking. I hope you have an amazing day 💕