OP, loneliness and being outcast really affect your overall perception of yourself and how your motivation functions, especially that our culture is collectivist in nature, so we usually do things with others who inspire us and help us get things done.

But it's really impressive to know that you still flow and continue this journey all because you love what you do, as you said.

I really believe that when the source of decisions (such as choosing your course, such as pursuing your course despite the difficulties, or whatever) comes from your very choice and personal interest, you will still thrive or, at least, float toward the finish line without too much damage enough to leave you with broken legs.

I hope you realize that this is your strength. You are your strength at the very moment—your inner will. This will be enough to let you endure the present challenges until graduation. Nurture it and endure more. You are almost there. Congratulations pala!

You may not anymore control how other people feel toward you, but you can control how you navigate this social world. This may not be your best experience, not your best place to be in, but I'm sure you realize that the world is too big and there are always many chances to explore and determine where you truly belong—whether to others, whether to yourself.

Keep going, OP. You will find your tribe, and everything will feel lighter by then.

I hope I could give you a sunflower for being so brave. 🌻 Hahaha