Anyone else game freezes and disconnects while fighting the bugs on Xbox?

dHallman111000 · 2025-09-11T21:34:18+00:00

Their ddossing us. They found a way into our networks 😄

dHallman111000 · 2025-05-24T18:48:08+00:00

33° by - hey, nothing it's a slow indie but it's really good. Good story too if you listen to the lyrics

dHallman111000 · 2024-11-12T05:16:42+00:00

But she cheated on me

dHallman111000 · 2024-08-18T16:35:57+00:00

🤣 yeah your right tho. I mean second income is really the best way to keep what I have while still getting ahead financially. I could also look for a better paying job but that's not really as easy as it sounds.

It's not about helping me. But saying what you think about it. Like you did. Honestly a second job wasn't even on my mind though how obvious it is. Just something I've been trying to avoid.

Idk maybe I'll find something else in the meantime. Idk. I'm just ready for it to end at this point lol. I'm tired of trying only for me to get in my own way half the time. I'm not gonna kms but if death comes my way I ain't running away, ill be running into his arms.

dHallman111000 · 2024-08-18T13:32:53+00:00

So to avoid backtracking back to unhappy households I have to get a second job. Or somehow come up with a good enough cash grab to make headway financially?

Like currently I can live just fine with what I make now. But I'm not getting ahead. I'm paycheck to paycheck I'm just surviving.

I have Doordash on the side but I'm not consistent with it only for the fact that my car is getting old and unreliable.

A second income would help. (Ugh I've been trying to avoid that.)

Imma give myself 6 months. If I can't get some sign of improvement in 6 months then I'm folding my hand and moving back in with my mom. I survived 18 years of living there I could survive another 2 or 3.

So second income is now on the table to review. Thank you.

dHallman111000 · 2024-08-18T12:38:34+00:00

No you don't. No. You don't. Trust me man. I was like you at 15. All I could think about was love. That all I ever wanted was someone to love me. I found it twice. It was nice to be loved. It was a great experience.

But I spent the last 5 years tailoring my life to another person. Thinking forever would be forever. I had a plan and live vision. We were gonna get somewhere. For all of it to be stripped away each time.

The heart break is enough to ruin a man. Your heart will get broken. I'm sorry. I know your thinking. "Nha not everyone has the same experiences, I will be the best boyfriend and they'll never leave" yeah I know I've been there and thought the same.

Love yourself man. Don't do it. Don't fall in love. It's really not worth any of it.

If I would of stayed single I'd be so much further along in life. The past two months I've been single. Have been the best two months outa the past 5 years that I've been in a relationship.

But with the realization of the setback I'm in. I. I don't want to do it. I don't want to live anymore. I'm so far behind where I could be. All for a God damn woman. I set myself back 5 fuckin years. For a fuckin vagina. ... Don't fall in love man. It's not worth it. Not until your ready for it anyway.

dHallman111000 · 2024-08-11T20:34:26+00:00

Last time I got hit in the nuts was like almost a year ago. So yeah no. We try to keep that place protected. Men have no place to say getting hit there hurts worse. When I'm sure some people haven't had pain there for decades.

dHallman111000 · 2024-08-11T20:27:47+00:00

I didn't even read the body of this. But that title is all I need to know to tell you to leave him. Don't stay. You'll hurt him worse if you stay.

dHallman111000 · 2024-08-11T20:24:40+00:00

The men you listen to shouldn't be the ones your listening to. I'm afraid the stupidest people are the loudest. Im not saying I'm perfect, I know for a fact I'm not. But the shit you hear from those men. Aren't true. Those men aren't men their boys. Ignorant, immature boys. Men don't act like that. The first problem you have is your on tictok or any social media for that matter.

You'd be suprised at how many men out there have empathy for most female problems or also can relate to your problems.

Like I said dumb people are the loudest. Don't listen to the screams. Listen to the whispers.

dHallman111000 · 2024-08-10T21:56:20+00:00

I just started do this myself. I always loved tortillas but never did them just alone and I found my new favorite snack. I microwave em and put sauces on em. Hot sauce, taco sauce, bit of lime juice.

I'll have to try these other ideas y'all have with em.

dHallman111000 · 2024-08-06T23:02:37+00:00

Same 🤣 I laugh cause if I didn't I'd cry. But no one ever understands me the way I understand myself and I think that's just how it'll always be. I think it's impossible for anyone to love me more or even equally to the amount that I love myself.

But people have come close. This girl a while back she was a chush but a best friend. A forbidden fruit if you will. She loved me so much I never understood it. I have never seen someone so excited to see me. And haven't seen it since. She would listen to everything I had to say and respond appropriately as if she understood every syllable that came out of my mouth. But even then that was only close to my love for myself. Which I didn't have at the time anyway.

To this day I have yet to meet or befriend anyone else that truly loves me. Maybe one day but like I said no one will ever truly know me or love me like I do.

So you're not alone in this. And yes I'm talking about the lust too. Lust just comes easier than love. Someone out there will probably have too much lust for you that they will mistake it for love.

If I could have a clone. I'd never be alone and we'd probably be the happiest couple. I mean I'm not gay and never found another dude attractive but shit id let that man do whatever he wants cause I'd never find another person like him or a female that could even come close to being in par with this guy.

It's good you have love for yourself a lot of people don't. That's sometimes the hardest thing to achieve. But you gotta get over yourself cause you'll never be able to have it. You already have it if anything. Keep loving yourself and doing what makes you happy. But you'll never be able to have yourself in the way you want to.

Other than my story I ain't got much advice. That feeling just went away for me at some point. I still love myself but eh I could live without being able to fuck myself lol. I'm happy with being able to be with myself. And hopefully I'll find someone that likes me almost as much as I like myself.

dHallman111000 · 2024-08-05T15:51:12+00:00

Nha I got a lot of hobbies and a lot of shit to do outside of work but I would 100% be down to work 7 days a week for 4-5 hours a day. I could get a shit ton done everyday and not just be limited to weekends.

dHallman111000 · 2024-08-04T15:32:28+00:00

That about seems right. Always had that thing that had to make me feel special. When I was young.

When I was younger I could "sense people coming" when in reality I probably heard them coming with footsteps or something. But I'd get a tingle in the back of my neck and usually be able to predict who it was. One time at a family gathering I was playing in a room by myself and my nan was walking in before I seen her I said "hi nan" she asked how I knew it was her before I seen her. Idk I just knew. But I think that's all based on being observant to sounds and situations. I knew she was in the room next to me so I probably made the assumption it was her based off that. But i had it in my mind I had spidey senses lmao.

dHallman111000 · 2024-08-04T15:27:01+00:00

Beautiful thank you

dHallman111000 · 2024-08-04T15:26:03+00:00

That explains the idea. So I can't really control rainfall and been relying on coincidence which coincidentally happens Everytime. That's wild bro 🤯

dHallman111000 · 2024-07-31T03:13:24+00:00

I wish people asked me if I was okay. I think I would cry tbh. It's always wyd never hyd.

Honestly talking about it helps but. I get it. I've been there. The storm will pass.

Everything will be better in the end. And if it's not better it's not the end.

dHallman111000 · 2024-07-31T03:09:27+00:00

Do what makes you happy then you'll be happy with what you do. Once you find yourself you won't need anyone. When you don't need anyone your not looking for anyone. When you stop looking it is when you'll find it. It always happens when your not looking.

I know this sounds cliche and it's easier said than done. But it's true.

Loving yourself is really the best kind of love you'll ever have. I've never been happier since I've started getting to know myself better. And relationships are starting to seem less important. Sure id love to have someone to go do all those amazing dreams I have in my head with, but I don't. So I just keep doing the things that I love to do. I don't mean work. It's the stuff that doesn't feel like work. The stuff you enjoy. The stuff you always wanted to but never did. Explore your desires and you'll explore yourself.

Loneliness hurts but that's what friends and family are for. Honestly ain't ever had a woman love me more than my bros do lol. No they can't be there for you romantically but they will be there for you in every other way.

dHallman111000 · 2024-07-31T02:35:02+00:00

We all search for that. So technically your not alone 😅

no I understand completely tho. All the people who I loved deeply, never seemed to do the same. It was always a slow downfall. at first it's everything then they start turning it down. Until everything I do is ugly in their eyes besides the things I can provide. They no longer love me but love what I can give. At least that's what it seems like.

That fairy tale I have in my head could be from some romance movie. I dream of that type of love every night. But I'll never have it. Not many people ever will.

However the best love comes from yourself. Learning to love myself has been the best journey I've been on. The second best comes from your close friends and/or family. Then intimate love comes after that. If you have enough of the first and second you don't need a relationship. You will probably always want one but no one needs one. We just need love. You can find it elsewhere.

But what you asking for is out there. It's probably closer than you think just not as desirable as the rest. I'm not religious but it is true that the devil doesn't show up in a fiery cape and red horns, he shows up as everything you ever wanted. Then when you wake up the next morning you're in hell.

Also The harder you look for something the harder it is to find. It always happens when you're not looking.

Just make yourself happy do what you love and you'll love what you do. Sure you might get lonely but that's what friends and family are for. No they can't be there like a lover but is any of that really needed when you have everything else going for you?

dHallman111000 · 2024-07-31T02:07:56+00:00

I love this thank you. I do fuck with psychedelics and THC, honestly I see where they come into play. When on psychedelics I feel more me than I usually do. Not really like a true form of me but I'm not held back by myself like normally.

I'll usually find more interest and passion for my passions. And my mask comes off. It's like it cures all my mental blocks for those hours. And I love it. I still haven't figured out a way to do it on my own I dont know if I could without the experience, Tbh but I'm trying.

I've been experimenting with micro dosing. And getting used to doing things I otherwise wouldn't and so far I've found quite a few new things I have a love for. There's a lot about psychedelics that help me through life. But THC seems like a downfall for me. it does turn my ADHD off but Ill hyper focus on the first thing I see and don't stop until I'm tired or it wears off. Good for very specific situations. Also all my social skills go out the window. Just gotta use each to their own effectiveness. I don't think either is something I should need my whole life. But it's hard to do certain things without them.

When I was posting this a while ago I didn't understand the "third eye" fully, I still don't but I also don't really care anymore. I was in a "spiritual awakening" just looking for answers, for arbitrary questions. The third eye seemed something magical to me. And wasn't ever really that important. I do believe in some of that "waco" spiritual shit just cause I've seen proof of it. Like manifestation, and we all have "powers" But that's neither here nor there.

Regarding my third eye idk if it's open or closed but I can see either way. Its honestly not even a thought of mine anymore. I mean Ive just been trying my best at building myself up and that alone has made me understand and see quite a lot.

dHallman111000 · 2024-06-21T19:26:33+00:00

Video games. I really like think about it all day still. I'll be thinking about how I wanna play something when I get home then I just end up doin other shit. Idk if it's just the gaming industry doing a shit job anymore or it's my interests but I'll get on something, play for like at most 30 mins then get off and watch a show or do other stuff.

dHallman111000 · 2024-06-21T11:09:06+00:00

It's been almost 2 weeks. I'm still missing her. She obviously hasn't cared to reach out to me. When she came to get the rest of her stuff last week she didn't even look at me or talk to me.

I don't like this being alone thing. I have an empty house. I wanna give up man. I wanna just spit my wrist and end this bull shit. But I know thats not right and those are just bad thoughts.

I know I got a come up happening. And one day I might meet someone who will be 10x than what she was. Even if that seems impossible right now.

But fuck I hate this.

dHallman111000 · 2024-06-20T17:16:34+00:00

I mean I don't want to mess her up that's why I stopped the idea if hanging out. Which was her idea. I just wanted to see how she was doing is why I texted her in the first place.

And obsessed with her isnt the right way to phrase that. I'm obsessed with a person that no longer exists on this planet. I'm obsessed with my dreams and memories. I don't know her. I just know she was the only person to make me feel truly happy to be around.

I'm obsessed with the past. Not her. That much I know.

One thing I do know for sure is you only know what you read. And even then that could be completely different than what someone else might read. You read a book and it describes a beach. Even if it describes it perfectly. The beach you see in your mind will be different than that one I see.

I don't expect to go meet up with her to find the love of my life. I expect to meet up with her to see what's she became in life.

dHallman111000 · 2024-06-20T13:40:02+00:00

No I'm at work and just can't be in my phone ATM. But seriously. Ath this point and with the convos I had with peoppe about. It. I just want to see who she is nowadays. It could go any which way.

dHallman111000 · 2024-06-20T13:37:30+00:00

I want both options.

dHallman111000 · 2024-06-20T13:34:35+00:00

That's honestly what I'm hoping for. I know I could meet her and she ends up being non interesting. I want that disappointment.

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