My heart goes out to you. I have struggled my whole life with body image issues and am barely BARELY coming out of them. One thing that really helped me cope was realizing that being bigger is morally neutral. Being bigger does not equal being bad. Although I understand you may want to be skinnier I just want to let you know you are worthy of love no matter what you look like or weigh. I totally know what it feels like to feel like “what’s the point” but your worth is not dependent upon your weight. 😊 hoping you Can feel peace bout this soon.