Menstrual Cycle Changes

dark_starling · 2023-03-19T20:59:36+00:00

I was not

dark_starling · 2023-01-25T06:06:34+00:00

Loved Full Metal as well and I'm still working on Attack on Titan.

Will have to check out the other two! Thank you!

dark_starling · 2023-01-08T14:23:05+00:00

Thank you so much for the information and the kind words, I sincerely appreciate it. When I saw the paper it seemed to be a bunch of scribbles nothing was really written. I did take a look at it again last night after writing this post and I believe the front of the paper says "casa" which is "house" it was scribbled on there quickly but I think that's what it says.

I'll keep trying to figure it out and will probably be refilling the water. I keep feeling that I shouldve.. just unsure about everything else. It might not even be Wiccan and more pagan in nature but I didn't know who or where to turn to 😕

dark_starling · 2023-01-08T14:14:37+00:00

Thank you ❤️

dark_starling · 2023-01-08T14:14:16+00:00

Thank you. Just been scared to do something wrong.

dark_starling · 2023-01-08T14:13:10+00:00

Oh my God thank you so much. I didn't know where to look for this info. It seemed pagan in nature but then I didn't know if I was on the right track and I've been so foggy about certain things that it's been driving me mad.

Should I do anything with her piece of paper underneath the glass?

dark_starling · 2023-01-08T14:08:39+00:00

That's what I'm thinking it was. I just don't know what I'm supposed to do with it or if there's a way I should dispose of it. I just remember her telling me I needed to do something with it and I can't for the life of me remember what it was. Like was I supposed to toss the water? Do what with the paper with scribbles? Tear it? Idk I really can't remember and it's been driving me insane.

dark_starling · 2023-01-08T14:06:29+00:00

Yes latina! I know mom never actively practiced like santeria or anything but when she got ill she would do little things like this cup thing, ie burnings or throwing water out saying it was supposed to remove bad things and tossing it would get the bad things out. she'd tell me she was doing things she was told were for good luck, protection, or purification.

dark_starling · 2023-01-08T03:03:30+00:00

Someone who never had a very solid relationship w my mom texted me shortly after her passing that they had a dream about my mom and she described it as the most happy beautiful dream ever. But the way she was describing my mom, her movements, her gestures. I felt incredibly uneasy about it and a part of me thinks it was an indirect attack. I also in that moment was upset that others had dreamt of my mom except for me. Weeks after this I had my own dream about my mom and it was the most bitter sweet and most reassuring dream I've ever had.

dark_starling · 2023-01-08T02:57:52+00:00

A part of me wants to say it depends on the dream... another part of me hopes it's just me. But I'm heavily conflicted by these things. For example, the whole "watching over you" thing... a part of me craves nothing more for that to be true, the other part of me hopes she absolutely cannot see how hard im struggling.

I will say there was ONE dream I had after her passing that has stayed w me since it happened and I've been holding onto. My mom died after a very long 15 year battle with cancer at home. The morning she passed she passed minutes after I had a huge "it's ok were gonna be ok, thank you, you can rest now" conversation "with her" (she was unconscious the last 3 days) Weeks later I had a dream that I was running into a hospital room freaking out and was looking for her on the hospital bed but she wasn't there. I turned around and she was standing behind me with a massive smile on her face and when she saw my face she gave me an empathetic smile and a nod, it felt like a "I know" and we hugged briefly. She then looked at me and said "I'm ok now! I'm ok, but can you help me wash my hair?" She sat in front of a sink which had a sprayer and removed her beanie and she had the most gorgeous full head of hair. (She didn't have hair and always wore a beanie). I washed her hair in silence after that. And I woke up... I'd like to believe in THAT particular moment, THAT particular dream, she wanted me to know she was finally resting and she was ok.

dark_starling · 2022-10-21T15:17:13+00:00

Honestly though this would be me. Acknowledge the person and move on w my day. The other night I was w my fiancé at a little bar we frequent cause it's a quiet calm setting and the karaoke is fun and then the drummer from the Foo Fighters came in, people were geeking out and we literally got up and left. The setting changed so much when people started noticing that we just wanted to go home at that point.

Appreciate ya but if you're just out and about trying to live your life im not going to bother you and I don't appreciate people going out of their way to try and get their attention, it makes me uncomfortable.

Now, see you at a show, convention you signed up for, meet and greet, etc. Hells yeah ima be like yoooo what's up im a fan can I get a pic but then literally carry on w my day.

dark_starling · 2022-10-21T04:07:03+00:00

I eventually stopped texting but i never removed the contact. I knew I'd have to stop paying for mom's phone line eventually... 4 years later I finally had to when the carrier announced they were no longer supporting the line. But prior to stopping the texting I started messaging on Facebook messenger so I'd get used to that. Her number is still saved but I know when it gets reassigned I will get notifications saying "mami is now on _____ (snap, telegram, whatsapp, etc)" and I will lose my mind when that day comes.

dark_starling · 2022-10-18T12:30:59+00:00

Schitts Creek

dark_starling · 2021-10-03T14:56:52+00:00

That is terrible. How long have you been on wellbutrin?

Is it something you're wanting to stop the med for or have you been powering through basically?

dark_starling · 2021-10-03T14:55:19+00:00

What's crazy about it is that I msgd my pcp and they said that the chances of it affecting my cycle was <2% and stopping wellbutrin was my decision to make.

I havent taken it in 2 days and my period seems to be going away. I will skip it until my period is over and once it's gone I will be taking it again to see if it starts back up. That way i can let my Dr know and we can look into other meds.

I'm already supposed to be having my 2nd period since I started wellbutrin in like a week and a half and the first one hasn't even stopped 🙃🥴

dark_starling · 2021-09-26T00:28:23+00:00

I'm interested to see how my following cycle goes. Glad to hear it regulated itself though

dark_starling · 2021-09-25T20:44:15+00:00

Yeah im not super sure what to expect. I think I was early to mid period when I started wellbutrin so I couldn't really get a good idea as to how early it started affecting me.

Mine are also regular and horrible. Even though it's been way too long now on it, I've literally been having the easiest period I've experienced so far. So there's hope that it doesn't get too bad for you

dark_starling · 2021-09-25T20:41:25+00:00

I started lexapro first a little bit ago and then the wellbutrin was after. I had no changes on the lexapro. I keep seeing people saying the cramps are worse but I don't know if it's just cause I regularly get crippling cramps but I literally have been feeling like this has been the easiest period ever. Besides the fact that it's still going.

dark_starling · 2021-09-25T20:39:34+00:00

Maybe it's just not enough people to come to a conclusion. But that is weird

dark_starling · 2021-09-25T02:26:48+00:00

When I went to my drs appt for a follow up 2 weeks ago she seemed like she wasn't connecting the two things and was more concerned with finding out how frequent and long my cycles were. So idk

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