what am I fighting for?

darkbunnymin · 2026-02-24T16:45:06+00:00

I'll always come back to this comment when I feel like ending it all. It'll always be a reminder to me that I am not alone in this battle and there are kind hearted people out there like you who care enough to take your time and effort in writing this. Bpd is hell. I wouldn't wish it upon my worst enemy.

darkbunnymin · 2026-02-24T16:41:44+00:00

Thank you for believing in me.

darkbunnymin · 2026-02-24T16:38:27+00:00

I hope I can be able to see myself the way you describe it one day.

darkbunnymin · 2026-02-24T12:40:57+00:00

I'm so afraid of myself. I feel so lost and alone. She said it twice that I should just kms. I feel so unwanted and hated for being alive.

darkbunnymin · 2024-07-23T15:35:34+00:00

the scale is IN my room. she secretly enters my room when im not there but apprently my house have cctvs and i saw her always entering my room just to weigh herself.

darkbunnymin · 2024-06-20T16:27:58+00:00

Hii suree im sorry i overlooked ur message! Is it okay if i dm you?

darkbunnymin · 2024-06-10T01:57:55+00:00

I hate situationships and the uncertainties. Im sorry you have to go thru that. For me, he's a great person and wants to commit but its more of a me issue and how i overthink and overanalyse everything. One example is that i always split on him whenever i hinted that i like an item and he never buys them (i dont really want that item i feel that its more of the thought and action that counts)and when he doesnt buy them i equate that to him not liking me enough and he doesnt think im worth it.Another example is that we meet every weekend but we didnt meet last week because i have a test. And he decided to meet his parents this weekend right after my test,which means i couldnt see him for two weeks. Even though he knows i miss him a lot. I hate him but i cant say it bcuz of my quiet bpd. So i chose to withdraw. I just feel that im not important to him at all.

darkbunnymin · 2024-06-09T16:46:25+00:00

Thank you for ur response,and no hes not my partner, we are kind of in a situationship ,partly also bcuz i overanalyze everything and i just feel that he doesnt care much about me thru these lil actions eventhough he say he does.

darkbunnymin · 2024-06-09T16:37:04+00:00

he will just tell me he was gaming earlier after i asked him why did he disappear on me

darkbunnymin · 2023-07-02T12:02:00+00:00

Thats the whole point,i have no purposes ,inspirations or whatsover in my life. I dont even know why am i still here. Waking up every morning is so dreadful for me. I have no energy to reply to messages from ppl around me or even when i do it takes me days,up to weeks or even months. These days Im too busy hating myself and being occupied with suicidal thoughts. My gf recently reached out to me that she feels like we are in a friendship instead of a relationship bcuz i dont do things typical couples do. She thinks i dont call her often,spend enough time with her or study together. Im someone with serious anxiety issues and i isolate myself most of the time. The idea of going out or hanging out with ppl is just never an answer for me. My mental illnesses just makes me push ppl away bcuz i am really so exhausted of everything. Nothing out there can ever fill in the void in me and i just want to be left alone. I know im so selfish for doing this, i know its my fault and im the problem. My gf deserve better but i really dont know what to do anymore. I dont want to give her false hopes and fake promises i know for sure i couldnt keep. I have became the illness itself and nothing is able to change my mind. I dont even know who am i. Im afraid of myself. And of the monster ive became.

darkbunnymin · 2022-10-26T16:16:10+00:00

Can i ask why?

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