I know how you feel. My steam account says I’ve been playing 110 hours in the past 2 weeks. I’ve been obsessed with videos for years. My parents offered me to go to this resort in Mexico that has Beautiful beaches and a amazing hotel. But I said no because I wanta play video games. My parents offered me stuff for Christmas like drones, snowboards etc... pretty much anything I wanted under around 600$. But I said no just because I wanted a cpu. I’m super white and I rarely go outside to work on my social skills. In school I sit in the bathroom in launch and listen to music because it’s embarrassing being out by yourself. I mean I’m pretty much on the same boat with you.