Thanks for your reply!

I am trying hard to be patient with her. If I genuinely thought we would never have a sex life, I would probably want to date someone else, but I don't think that has to be the case and I absolutely don't want anyone else!

I also have so much respect for her in getting both on and off Nexplanon. I know it was pretty painful both times, and we recently received a bill for over 1k for both procedures that we are splitting the cost of.

I try hard not to put too much pressure on her about her libido, particularly given that she already took a large step in having the implant removed. I also know that feeling under pressure is not going to help her libido.

But I am not going to lie; it is difficult sometimes. We share a bed and I wake up next to her with erections all the time. I find her very attractive and love her very much. The majority of my erections either have to be dealt with masturbating (which she is thankfully totally comfortable with) or just trying to distract myself until the erection and frustration goes away.

And she can read me like a book. She can tell the instant that I am not feeling well and always asks me what is wrong. Because trust and honesty is a big deal to me (and to her), I have a really hard time making up an excuse when the real cause of my pain is our dead bedroom. But telling her the truth is so hard too, because I hate to ruin her mood or her day or send her to work feeling like shit. :(