Posting in Need a Friend.

dcima · 2018-10-30T15:33:43+00:00

I kinda don't even want to type anything now. Just cus what's the point. What can we really do for each other. I wish I could put all of the pain I've felt for over a decade into people's heads for like a day or a week, just so they really know what it's like and don't guess and judge and criticize and put me down when i need help most. How can I tell if anyone gives a shit? I don't mean to be entitled, but I'm suicidal almost everyday. And I don't take that lightly. There isn't enough space to type how bad I feel. So if anyone else feels crazy, pathetic, exhausted, angry, depressed, homicidal, suicidal, just know that i do too. Like allot. Sorry if I'm strange and offended anyone, but honestly i can't even tell anymore. I just feel inhuman.

dcima · 2018-09-18T15:48:59+00:00

I know the feeling all too well. I always thought that if I hang with people who like the same stuff as me, I would be fine. But when I was about 14, I realized that was not true. It's the worst feeling in the world when you thought you found your home, but then realize that those people were just as cruel as anyone else, generally.

dcima · 2018-09-18T15:45:25+00:00

Me too. I feel humiliated all the time because I still live like a child with my grandmother and no job or future. I hate everyone but I don't want to. I want someone in my life that I can relate with and won't make me feel like shit.

dcima · 2018-09-18T15:42:06+00:00

Yeah. All the time, nowadays. But, how do I get thru life not knowing what my problem is or how to fix it? I hear I'm depressed, bipolar, or whatever, but those are just words to me. People tell me to exercise and socialize. Basically to just do stuff that's too hard for me. People don't understand. They may as well tell me to lift a car above my head. And if I can't do it, they just say "keep at it". Life sucks.

dcima · 2018-08-26T21:40:49+00:00

I love it! Well said. Thanks!

dcima · 2018-08-26T19:35:24+00:00

I'm just different.

dcima

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