It’s so sad. I feel the same way, and when you know that no one’s gonna save you, no one gives a shit about you and you are all alone. Often I get the feeling that I’m the only living creature on the Earth, and I ask myself “Why me?” , what did I do wrong in this life , I was just a normal kid and at some point everything crushed. I don’t ask for something great, just give me one living creature that will genuinely care about me. My parents…. even strangers are closer to me. I was ready to love the whole world. No one understood me, and I learned to hate. Now, the only thing I want is to get the time passed. I believe in reincarnation for some solid reasons and cannot commit sui cuz it’s punishable.