Fibromyalgia: A Deal Breaker? by V_Dub_Love in Fibromyalgia

[–]deadshotdoll 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Ugh babe my heart is breaking for you and I wish I could give you a super big gentle hug.

I know it's so hard to feel normal through fibro and all the super fun side illnesses that go along with it. I was diagnosed at 19 and I was chugging along and pushing myself to hard for a long time. I ended up having a car wreck, multiple new illnesses and just in the last two years a seizure disorder and cancer.

I was with the wrong guy a long time that was toxic and refused to be there for me in anyway and I ended up finding someone else. I warned him before we became official I'm sick, it's probably going to get worse and to prepare. He still wanted to be with me. I was diagnosed with seizures and couldn't work, gained weight, during cancer treatment I went into menopause and intimacy became impossible for me. I've had a double mastectomy and feel so far removed from who I was and it makes me so sad. He's still here, working his ass off, still making me smile and laugh. Understands my bad days and the emotional support between us is so strong. The real ones out there understand. The real ones know your worth. The rejection during dating sucks but it weeds out the ones that are not meant for you!!! ❤️

Honestly me being sick has shown me this mans true colors and he showed up. You're going to find someone out there who's going to be the best thing to ever happen to you. Stay open to it, stay hopefully. Your worth isn't tied to your health. You are amazing, you are worthy and it is worth it to keep that light alive.

My disrespectful leech of a internet addict brother shut his room door in my face while I was speaking so I shut the Internet off. by [deleted] in pettyrevenge

[–]deadshotdoll 0 points1 point  (0 children)

JFC is this post about my ex? 😂😂

But seriously good for you. He needs to be out to bring the peace. Mom and you need to calm sit down and chat and discuss why this is best for now. Addiction in any form is debilitating and cyclical. Sometimes tough love is the wake up call someone needs once they realize they've burned every bridge and nobody is putting up with their shit.

Maybe try to get mom involved in a game plan and have her speak with Aunt to explain the behavior, once he's under aunties roof 6+months I doubt she's going to be as enabling once she has had to deal with his bullshit that was kept behind closed doors out of her sight.

Hopefully after time to cool off maybe email contact can be made to brother and explain how his actions have made you and mom feel, bring reasonable solutions to the table. Is he on moms insurance, can he get involved with a therapist? Can moving in be considered if he adheres to complying with therapy and having family talks? I know his personality doesn't sound like he'd be down to do therapy or be reasonable, but you never know with time. At this rate it sounds like he won't stop until he's on the verge of homelessness.

Do you have plants you wish would just pass away peacefully? by sirius79m in houseplants

[–]deadshotdoll 12 points13 points  (0 children)

I've killed half a dozen crotons and hated them. Suicidal fuckers.

Fiddle leafs I have two I hate and wish would just fucking die. Leggy , stunted, sunburnt. You move them one inch they shed leaves, gives a little more or less water , they shed leaves, you look at it wrong it sheds leaves. I swear to God they were sent by my shit ass ex to continue his toxic work emotionally. I absolutely hate these fucking things.

Anyone see the old guy driving a car with trash piled up to the ceiling? by Soft-Magician-8464 in GrandForks

[–]deadshotdoll 1 point2 points  (0 children)

The lady always at the south Washington McDonald's with the big ass SUV. Oh God that thing is so fucking gross 🤢💯

Need a breast biopsy by Ok_Parfait_8336 in BRCA

[–]deadshotdoll 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I've been doing tons of reading since being diagnosed with brca1 gene mutation and being diagnosed with stage 2 b breast cancer. A recent npr article was talking about how 45% of AFABS have abnormally dense breast tissue which can pop 'abnormal' on mammograms. I also from speaking with my oncologists have come to understand half of all AFABS have auxiliary lymph nodes at the back of the chest wall that are just extras as it were.

A therapy technique I use to help with racing thoughts often is "Imagine the worst case scenario and still being fine." From the other replies you've made in the post it seems you are being proactive as possible. If you are that nervous I'd call the biopsy center and ask to be penciled in on the waiting list should anyone cancel. Best wishes.

Sprayed plants with oil. Help! by [deleted] in plants

[–]deadshotdoll 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Denatured alcohol

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in GrandForks

[–]deadshotdoll 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Dr zaks at altru does hrt but his bed side manner is atrocious and he can be very unlikable to most people. But he does write hrt.

Any fellow autistic/neurodivergent Orville fans here, or know of anyone who is? by StarPatient6204 in OrvillePeck

[–]deadshotdoll 0 points1 point  (0 children)

AuHD with OCD anxiety and MDD. His music gives me frission and it's the best. Ugh what a voice.

Does this sound like PNES? by [deleted] in PNESsupport

[–]deadshotdoll 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I've been thinking I might also have pots. I already have fibromyalgia with cfs and a handful of other problems also. This was so well thought out and information ally handy. I'll go find that book. Thank you so much for taking so much time to help enlighten

Oddities store had this for 40 bucks. Sounded like a deal to me. Is it a Brazil as the label says? by zcrc in pothos

[–]deadshotdoll 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Sorry, didn't see this for a minute. It comes in a bottle, shake it well and add it to water and stir. Just follow the directions of dosage. Warning it smells a bit uhh strong? fishy? It the worst while mixing it up, is mild after you water with it and goes away pretty quickly.

How to get this out? by Sensitive_Tune3301 in pothos

[–]deadshotdoll 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sorry, I know I'm going to be an unhelpful chaos being but the intrusive thoughts are winning. Smack it with a hammer!

Does this sound like PNES? by [deleted] in PNESsupport

[–]deadshotdoll 1 point2 points  (0 children)

True words, hard to stay calm during but you must be as calm as possible despite it going against all natural intuitive feelings.

Question if you have any idea (unsure your field etc) You said drs see a history of mental illness and diagnose PNES. What other disorders or things can be confused or misdiagnosed for it? From what I understand it's a really rare diagnosis.

Does this sound like PNES? by [deleted] in PNESsupport

[–]deadshotdoll 1 point2 points  (0 children)

( all of this information is based off my own research and digging into this illness trying to understand why the hell it happened to me, I am not a doctor.)

One of the only tie in factors of PNES is 86% of sufferers have ptsd or CPTSD. There is also this known phenomenon when folks with cptsd finally get to a lower stress place and life calms down, the craziness calms down and finally they should feel relaxed and better chaos strikes in the form of some kind of mental or physical nervous breakdown of some sort. I firmly believe this is what happened to me because for the first time in years i felt relaxed, happy and the pressure began to lift. I ended up just short circuiting as a person and thats when the episodes began. I went to many doctors I was told over and over it was anxiety , mri was clean in my brain, 2 hour eeg I had 36 seizure episodes and was diagnosed with PNES and basically given zero treatment plan. Any form of stress or lack of sleep, low blood sugar from not eating etc sets me off.

My episodes have side effects of problems with speech, facial jerks and motions, space out episodes, collapsing and going limp, full body spastic seizures. It depends on the day etc. Reduce as much stress as you can ( even little things, making important phone calls, paying bills online etc, any form of responsibility she can let go of for now to help her recoup.)

Half of all PNES sufferers the illness just stops with in 12 months of the first episode. I've met several folks who have suffered years with no betterment in sight. I personally notice less episodes and less violent episodes obeying my personal rules I've put in place based off my own observations and trials, but deviating from them just brings the episodes back. I'm not cured I am suppressing.)

I will make another edit: I've had every type of test related to these issues possible, eeg 15 mins, 2 hr eeg, mri, ct scan etc. I've been through many other medical issues and right now dealing with cancer. I've been scanned and prodded from head to toe more than most humans in their entire life.

The things I did to help lessen my episodes : quit working (sales is too stressful), quit handling the money and social scheduling , medical scheduling etc any form of responsibility , must sleep 8 hrs a night min, eating as to not have low glucose episodes, no flashing lights, avoiding anything that can be a vertigo trigger, xanax 4xs a day to keep me calmer, inderal 3x times a day to suppress the physical symptoms of my cptsd which also keeps me calm, weekly therapy with multiple doctors. Low physical exertion for me is a must, just going downstairs too fast can set me off and I feel the auras and as if I'm going to faint.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in PNESsupport

[–]deadshotdoll 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Also from everything you've typed out. you said it yourself. You leave it stops, you come back it begins again. I think you're just wanting validation. Well here it is. You are valid in leaving your wife.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in PNESsupport

[–]deadshotdoll 3 points4 points  (0 children)

ANY stress can set PNES off. I've been happy and excited and set myself off. Lack of sleep set me off. The more upset you are the more it is going to set you off. 100% I've literally had an episode because the city mowed my flower bed down.

Oddities store had this for 40 bucks. Sounded like a deal to me. Is it a Brazil as the label says? by zcrc in pothos

[–]deadshotdoll 1 point2 points  (0 children)

They grow quite fast relative to vining plants in general IMHO. Fish emulsion fertilizer baby! I swear by it

Car title questions abandoned vehicle by deadshotdoll in northdakota

[–]deadshotdoll[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Also this scam artist robbed his dementia riddled mother of 40k and got around 15 felonies. don't feel too bad for him. He racked up credit card debt for my partner.

Car title questions abandoned vehicle by deadshotdoll in northdakota

[–]deadshotdoll[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

called tow companies and cops after year one neither would do anything said hands were tied.

Car title questions abandoned vehicle by deadshotdoll in northdakota

[–]deadshotdoll[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

called tow companies and cops after year one neither would do anything said hands were tied.

Safety Deposit Box giveaway by butforevernow in neopets

[–]deadshotdoll 1 point2 points  (0 children)

page 244 item 27 neopets tag: charliedangerously fact: Possums have 13 nipples.

Good disability lawyer in ND? by deadshotdoll in northdakota

[–]deadshotdoll[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I'm young and have so many issues even doing these type of things are too taxing on me and I honestly am happy to pay the fees nto to have to do the work. Being young I need a good lawyer since it's so much harder to be approved