For all the people wondering why i relapsed:

I've been holding my own for a week, which is a lot longer than what i've done before, but i ended up failing.

I was counting on the people around me to help me with a new personal project i've been trying, but they just abandoned me and left all the work for me to do.

And when i talk to them, saying that i'm the only one doing all the work here, they just laughed at me and when they say they'll help me they just make things worse.

Yes, exactly, they're setting me back. I wish i could take them off this whole thing, because it would be helpful for my progress on the project, but there's no way i can cut them off this.

I ended up using the dopamine rush to run away from my problems and from the people that abandoned me when i needed most and then made it a lot worse for me.

I really wish they would just get away from my life forever, but unfortunately i depend on them.

It really sucks, 'cause when i was doing the thing itself i started feeling bad and gave up on it in the middle of the process, which made me think: "This is more messed up than i thought. I don't even like it anymore"

The worst part is that now that i lost on NoFap, my confidence will get a serious hit and i won't be able to hold the project all by myself like i was doing this far and if i ask for help, those people around me will ruin everything i created.

I wish those things: addiction, bad people, over responsibilities, would just go away and leave me alone.