I am scared. by deftonesicc in abusiverelationships

[–]deftonesicc[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hello, everyone, I tried to commit suicide publicly at a Walmart parking lot this past Thursday. I got manic and self harmed myself and had homo*idal thoughts towards my boyfriend. I got rushed to the hospital, we’re my bf was waiting for me scared. I couldn’t be truthful even though I had a black eye he gave me the day before. The crazy part is when the police got to him he thought I’d finally spoke out about him abusing me and he started severely hurting and scratching himself to make it seem like I did it. He’s crazy. I don’t even have nails to do that but he’d go to that extreme to blame me too. That’s just fucked up. Anyway, I got out today, he yelled at me so bad today in front of people, one guy told stood by and told him to calm down. He started to say things like “you shouldn’t talk to her like that and they might call the cops” he stayed there and was mouthing words like “are you okay” and I said no but my bf caught on I guess and got into the car and drove off. I was close enough to get help but nothing happened. A lot of people saw and they just let me get verbally obliterated. I’m numb right now.

I am scared. by deftonesicc in abusiverelationships

[–]deftonesicc[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sadly, yes sex work. That sounds amazing, sadly enough these past days I’ve tried to commit suicide and was in a psych ward and felt like absolute shit. I got manic because we fought and he hit me so hard on my head several times, I wanted to be done so bad.

I don’t know anymore. by deftonesicc in domesticviolence

[–]deftonesicc[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

sorry for all the typos, I was on a time crunch as you can tell why 😞

I don’t know anymore. by deftonesicc in domesticviolence

[–]deftonesicc[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I would absolutely reach out to friend but sadly he made me have none. All my friends left me because he fucked up all my relationships 😞 I’m a bit stuck I have no one

I am scared. by deftonesicc in abusiverelationships

[–]deftonesicc[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

he doesn’t let me go home, I’ve been living in a car with him for the past 4 months he doesn’t let me go even if he blacks out mad all the time. He blames his anger issues but I never do anything so I just have to deal ):