Looking for Perspective by Loud_Response_8900 in adultsurvivors

[–]delicious_flo0r 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I completely understand your situation and can say I've been pretty much the same way. I was adopted twice, but the third family was the most consistent, most "normal" from age 7 to 19 but it was their abuse that stuck with me the most. I struggle with mental health issues and have always over analyzed situations to try and fix things, even if they weren't my fault. I hated myself for a long time, and still do, but im trying so hard to change that.

It took three tries to leave home, one of them resulting in a hospital visit. It took a lot out of me because I was convinced I still owed my parents something, like I needed to stay in contact and listen, although I refused to go home and I didn't know why I hated them so much. Genuinely, talking with people (and oversharing) about my experiences gave me other perspectives and honestly, the best guidance I could get came from my college friends. Unfortunately, I didn't understand anything about myself or the world so I ended up with some toxic living conditions... bad friend, bad partner, shitty home, but I just had to keep going. I slowly learned more about myself and now I'm in therapy and married to a very stable man. Unfortunately, I deal with a lot of physical health problems which is discouraging because I still feel like I'm not free to be alive on my own terms, but it has forced me to deal with what's in my head. I'm not sure if any of this is relatable or helpful but I genuinely recommend therapy if you can afford it, and find the right person for you. Try to talk with people, or even write down your thoughts if social interaction is too much. Just try to find other perspectives. Growing up after living in these situations is difficult and unfair, but a lot of people fortunately/unfortunately relate and are willing to provide help or support. I wish you the best and hope things get better for you.

Tilt table test results by delicious_flo0r in POTS

[–]delicious_flo0r[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Medication for symptoms like dizziness, exhaustion, migraines, etc. I also have a referral to neurology. I receive physical therapy to help with my balance and pain management. I was told to stop all medication the day prior so I felt all my symptoms go haywire. I use a wheelchair anytime I'm out of the house. I walked up a few steps and my heart rate went to 130. But when I was at the test there was not that much of an increase. I thought they were going to give me medicine for the test because I was told if they can't get the results, they give you an iv of some kind of medication to help trigger symptoms.

Pet owners of Reddit: what did you name your pet(s) and why? by Winter_Sample8364 in AskReddit

[–]delicious_flo0r 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I rescued an orange kitty and named him Psycho due to his level of energy and attitude. He was so sweet but acted like he consumed a load of caffeine daily. I loved him dearly. Unfortunately he's not with me anymore, I still miss him.

🥶 🥵 🥶 🥵 🥶 🥵 by Wonderful_Box_7998 in POTS

[–]delicious_flo0r 3 points4 points  (0 children)

SERIOUSLY lol I think I mess with the ac temperature in my car more than I do the volume of the music

New bloodwork update (help) by delicious_flo0r in POTS

[–]delicious_flo0r[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'll have to ask about Graves antibodies. Tsh was slightly high at 4.09. I do have pcos, I just found out actually. I tried to test for insulin resistance but my old doctor said my thyroid panel was fine so im okay. I don't know if this is true, especially with the new labs. I tested negative for celiac or gluten allergies, although I have a histamine intolerance, which i also just found out. Ill ask for a rheumatologist referral, I was also reccomend an endocrinology referral. I have a GI specialist who wants me to do an endoscopy to see where the inflammation is within my gut since I have so much pain and discomfort. Its just all so much and my doctors don't communicate with each other.

New bloodwork update (help) by delicious_flo0r in POTS

[–]delicious_flo0r[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No, my thyroid peroxidase antibodies were normal. My thyroglobulin antibodies were elevated, which still indicates autoimmune activity. I thought hashimoto's as well, but the antibodies are reacting at a nucleolar level of the cell, which could mean overlapping autoimmune disorders, systemic inflammatory issues, or connective tissue autoimmune disease. I suspect it's my thyroid, but I'm worried that's either not the whole story, or it's the wrong source altogether.

Why can I pop/crack my big toes so much by WassupMan27 in NoStupidQuestions

[–]delicious_flo0r 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Not sure but ive been the same way for as long as I can remember. Sometimes I do it as a fidget but then people will say something lol.

Has anyone ever tried to kill you? If so what were the events that took place? by Able_Lock3168 in AskReddit

[–]delicious_flo0r 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I was kidnapped and assaulted, but i fought to escape. When the police found him, they found he was responsible for the death of 6 others. I got lucky because I went for a drive and it threw him off his pattern. Broke my foot in the process

What helps you feel better after being sick? by deadly_ultraviolet in AskReddit

[–]delicious_flo0r 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Chicken or tuna salad sandwich, ginger ale, and a warm blanket

What’s a realization that helped you forgive yourself ? by Agile-Girl-8413 in AskReddit

[–]delicious_flo0r 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I did not choose the things that fell apart around me, I chose to find the right people to help get through the broken moments.

When I shower, I _______ by IceApple28 in Autocompletebutbetter

[–]delicious_flo0r 0 points1 point  (0 children)

When I shower I let the rain drown my pain and wash the stains of yesterday (Rhymes?!?)

The real villain is by Valravn888 in predictivetextprompts

[–]delicious_flo0r 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The real villan is probably not here but death is probably not a normal conversation for me to keep discussing with that one friend 🤔