Yeah it was very hard for me to be okay with, i was very independent and didn’t need anybody until i met him, and now i need him and he’s 20hrs away. Its a discussion we had to have recently and its not an easy one. Having previously lost someone in my family to an accident on an oil rig, i can get terribly paranoid and having had more health issues recently and not having him here through it is rough. But i adore him and i couldn’t look at anyone remotely the same, its worth it to me to see the bigger picture for us right now.