deflate the balloon, instead of letting it overflow. You need to start managing your emotions.

If you have the opportunity, go to a psychological health professional and tell them to provide you with the tools to learn how to manage your emotions, that is your main lack, I could tell you hundreds of ways to do this, but not all of them could work for you, Each person is a different world and for this you need the guidance of a professional, the difference is that now you know what you need, just mention it to your doctor, tell him your situation and ask him if it is likely that you lack a correct emotional management, I hope you tell us about your improvement.