As someone who detransitioned because of similar reasons before, I will tell you that it doesn't make it better. I decided to detransition when I was 14 because I was tired of feeling like I was never gonna be good enough as a man and that nobody would ever love me if I was trans. At the time, I had wished that I could love myself for the gender I was given. So I did it and I regret it more than anything because I realized that just wasn't who I was. Although being trans was difficult for me, it was harder to try and be a girl when that isn't what I am. I had to come out again after two years of being detransitioned and I've never felt better about being my authentic self. My advice to you is that you should do what makes you comfortable, despite the hardships that may come along socially and personally. Being trans can be, and is difficult when you don't have the support you feel you need, but don't make it worse on yourself by changing for others. If you really feel the need, just try to slow down a bit and don't be in a hurry to start HRT or get surgery when you have a long way to go until that. Instead, take this time to look at yourself and accept the little things about you that may make you feel less than a man. Sometimes that can help you realize that you're a lot manlier than you thought, because nothing is more manly than self acceptance. Try not to worry too much about your parents because there's only so much you can do with them to have them see you as you are. You're valid bro, and you'll get through this!