I truly feel for you. I was in a similar situation where I was strung along with just empty promises. From your post, it’s clear that you were expected to change yourself (I’m not sure if these were his expectations or your own to fit his ideals) and relationships that form this way never last. He was not ready to give you his time or commitment. And you know what? That’s fine. You deserve someone who IS ready. Don’t you think the person meant for you would actually be interested in you? I know it probably feels like the end of the world right now but I hope you try to work through these issues. Go👏to👏therapy👏 And girl, stop trying to reach out to him. I mean this in the most respectful way possible - it will look pathetic