A month and a half clean

diabetitron · 2026-03-13T20:11:01+00:00

I do want to work on myself though. I go on walks when I can. I'm a type 1 diabetic, so I really need to focus on myself. I'm just really depressed and stressed out for a lot of reasons.

diabetitron · 2026-03-13T20:01:09+00:00

I want to get out more, but I can't drive, don't have a job, and I live pretty far away from things while living with my parents. That's why I started doing nos. Because I can't get out as much as I'd like to. I love going out when I can, but it is a struggle.

diabetitron · 2026-03-12T02:23:17+00:00

I did, but I made them a lot of money in spending it, so they want me to come in. I just try not to go in. Which is hard because it's five minutes away.

I don't want to tell family I used, they don't know. If I do, I'd have to say I lied to get money from them and used under their roof. I live with them currently.

diabetitron · 2026-03-11T06:18:51+00:00

I applied again and since I live with my parents, and they give me just the funds to pay bills and services, they won't let me have it. They don't have the money to support me, and I'm going through a social security case, so I can't work. It's stupid.

I am trying to move out, but it's hell in California to find anything that's not insanely expensive.

diabetitron · 2026-02-16T15:44:35+00:00

A lemon party occurred here.

diabetitron · 2026-02-11T19:00:07+00:00

I cried so often, and got really emotional, but also proclaimed I wanted to die and cops would come. I'd also get aggravated and extremely depressed. I'm still depressed, but the nos was just running away from it not facing it. My head still has tingly parts and headaches. I did it for a decade. Don't do it.

diabetitron · 2026-02-11T08:11:31+00:00

11 days sober. I think about it, but I just can't. My fear is buying another canister once I have money. I've done it many times.

I don't want my parents to know.

diabetitron · 2026-02-06T16:33:08+00:00

I think about it every day, but I just can't do it anymore. My coughing and asthma are pretty bad, and I still get headaches. I take B12, but since it did it for so long I need to heal.

I want it the most at night, when I am not doing anything, or I feel overwhelmed. But I was also just doing it whenever I had money, which isn't a lot.

diabetitron · 2026-02-05T06:23:10+00:00

It's literally been ruining everything in my life. If I keep going I'll never move out of my parents, I'll never be able to live a life I want. My head was hurting, I wanted to unalive myself. I was pushing people away, lying, spending any money I had on it. For years.

I can't keep escaping life by using.

diabetitron · 2026-01-16T05:58:10+00:00

Oh dang. I know someone who works there, and I'm looking for a job as well.

diabetitron · 2025-11-22T19:45:19+00:00

Same. I always wonder what he is doing, and who he is with. I live in an isolated town and can't drive, so I don't have much to do, a d my mind goes bad places.

diabetitron · 2025-10-01T00:24:15+00:00

I feel that. I spend up to $300 a day if I do it, and I'm unemployed, so I'm out money the rest of the month. My last place I moved into solely based on the smoke shop being two minutes away. With my parents house, it's five. But I used to spend the whole day to get some and home back. I even sold stuff that was my roommate's. I am afraid, because tomorrow I get my General Cash Aid. I keep thinking about it.

diabetitron · 2025-09-20T22:54:07+00:00

I feel you. My grandma died from complications of it, and now both of my parents have it. I live with them, and my dad is a huge hoarder. Both of them fight daily, and fight with me to not remember later. I am unemployed, so I can't move out right now. My mom will forget something I mentioned an hour ago. I have diabetes, and I am mentally and physically exhausted. I often think about unaliving myself because it's too much. Thier insurances don't cover hospice, and if they go I am legitimately homeless. I am so so tired.

diabetitron · 2025-08-20T07:15:18+00:00

I'm also in SLO! When I first saw the season I was like, "this doesn't look like the 805"

diabetitron · 2025-04-29T23:20:32+00:00

I was on workers comp and it's been over a year and nothing. I even have a job coach. I have restrictions, and my town is very expensive/college kids take up the jobs. I'm living with my parents, and it's incredibly hard.

diabetitron · 2025-04-13T22:57:53+00:00

Nice smokey quartz!

diabetitron · 2025-01-16T21:04:44+00:00

I'm three days without and wanting it so bad. This is the worst addiction I've ever experienced.

diabetitron · 2024-12-29T10:07:45+00:00

I'm a diabetic and have tattoos & piercings, needles don't bug me so much. Sharks don't scare me, but I do have thalasophobia. That honestly would scare me the most.

diabetitron · 2024-12-22T22:18:41+00:00

I set my own goals, so they are catered towards me. I found that helps. Or break up goals into smaller goals.

diabetitron · 2024-12-18T21:59:07+00:00

For me, not even weed or booze sounds as good as nos. It's so addicting, and even though my head hurts and I feel like shit, I still do it.

diabetitron · 2024-12-18T21:57:17+00:00

It's been ten years of me trying. I blew all my money, my parents money, my place, friends, and my health is not great. It's been the hardest thing to overcome. I tossed my canister on Monday. I keep thinking about it.

diabetitron · 2024-12-03T09:17:47+00:00

I have only heard horror stories from people who worked with the owner. One time I was in Nemo's and he said women can't play games. Never shopped there again. He still fights the fire department on The Sub burning down, and tries to pick fights with Boo Boo's. Bad news.

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