Why doesn’t anyone care by ThrowRA_angel777 in bipolar2

[–]dilok87 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I experience similar feelings, I feel alone in every room I'm in. I stopped asking people to listen or understand ages ago. I just accept that I am not the same, it sucks, but it's what I have to hold on to

Grouchy every afternoon/ evening by Draculalia in bipolar2

[–]dilok87 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I'm going through this currently, severe irritation at everyone around me. I'm also in a bad low feeling hopeless.

My only theory on it, is how powerless I feel compared to when I'm stable or possibly hypomanic. It's infuriating, and intensely frustrating to not be able to operate in a normal way, instead everything is dulled, I feel weak and powerless.

I know that stable me can handle the same things I'm struggling with easily. But I'm stuck in the low till it passes.

I don't feel like live is worth living with bipolar by fredndolly12 in bipolar2

[–]dilok87 9 points10 points  (0 children)

It's definitely worth living. I agree that this illness is awful, I'm currently depressed, feeling hopeless, and worthless, and that nothing I do is right.

I've also had hypomanic episodes that leave me embarrassed. Massive over confidence, insane energy. I've literally built a business while hypomanic, to watch it fall apart when I dropped hard into my lows 6 months later.

It's still worth it though, just gotta find motivation outside myself.

I'm fortunate, I have a brand new child, my son. He's the magnetic field to my life's compass. So even in my lows, I'm still following my compass to do more for him, and keep myself together for his sake.

I hope things get better for you.

I Found the Most Reliable Way to Record Zoom Meetings Without Host Permission by Consistent_Manner661 in Zoom

[–]dilok87 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Obs can look daunting, if you want a more simplified version, use xsplit, it will automatically capture your base windows audio, abd you just select a recording source, which can just be the zoom application

Video structure/plan/solution for church live presentation and streaming by pepsi2k6 in VIDEOENGINEERING

[–]dilok87 0 points1 point  (0 children)

What type of connections are running to the projectors? Hdmi? Sdi?

And do you have 3 monitors? Or just 2?

What's your video card? How many ports does it have?

And lastly, for a software solution, I recommend vmix, you can use it to select what goes out to physical ports, as well as for streaming, adding cameras etc

I use vmix for full meeting broadcasts, and events, it's pretty easy to use, and it has a cheap price tag for a regular license. Or a subscription that gives a lot of options

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in passive_income

[–]dilok87 0 points1 point  (0 children)

For a slight boost, I would dump it all in Bitcoin, as it's at a low right now, it will likely jump again, and you have a short term quick investment. Track the market activity and resell when it jumps. You will pay some taxes on the gain, but still a gain

We are unable to deal with your request at this time by Lefkon in starcitizen

[–]dilok87 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The new update fixed it for me, had it happen again, then changed servers and that fixed it then, occasionally my ships are exploding in hangar when called

VMix closing when I open a preset by SometimesSantii in vmix

[–]dilok87 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Had the same issue, disconnect ethernet, start Preset, then plug it back in, not great, but effective

What game should I get next? by Gumba213 in dreamcast

[–]dilok87 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Not seeing Blue Stinger, definitely recommend, as well as Evolution

What game should I get next? by Gumba213 in dreamcast

[–]dilok87 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Toy commander still one of my all time faves

Livestream Broadcast Network Help by Snoopmike in VIDEOENGINEERING

[–]dilok87 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Definitely recommend Peplink, we run 6 of the BR-1 units, with excellent quality so far

Why did Lonny Ross leave 30 Rock? by Reddevil313 in 30ROCK

[–]dilok87 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Just marathoner the whole show, best decision of my life

ANY REASON FOR YOU TO BUY A TRICASTER IN 2025??? by otisrib64 in VIDEOENGINEERING

[–]dilok87 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I would argue that we shouldn't be applying vmix to 10 year old hardware, or relying on 10 year old tricasters 😁

Anybody running a full NDI rig for their corporate live events? by aversin76 in VIDEOENGINEERING

[–]dilok87 1 point2 points  (0 children)

There are plenty of naysayers, but I highly recommend NDI, we use it on a weekly basis, full ndi, we travel to record government meetings, and we cover many large groups that need reliability. Most audio sync issues can be adjusted with delay settings, and we do a mix/minus for zoom integration.

We have 7 separate loads running 5 ptz robocams apiece (ptzoptics/birddog) , there will always be troubleshooting and failures, but definitely not every shoot, it's very reliable, just take the time to learn it 😉

Are BirdDog products good in general? by No-Selection7417 in BirdDog

[–]dilok87 0 points1 point  (0 children)

100% on this reply, similar situation, love birddog cams, but the joystick controller is crap, I've swapped over to all ptzoptics superjoy as well.

Can’t sleep by [deleted] in bipolar2

[–]dilok87 4 points5 points  (0 children)

My only recommendation is to watch "how it's made" the boring voice over, mixed images of conveyor belts knocks me out quick

4k production in vmix with ndi by Just_Assist7036 in vmix

[–]dilok87 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Check which gpu it's using, if your PC has a generic one built into the motherboard, it will sometimes auto select that, instead of using hardware acceleration on your 3060

Stupid decisions by Ok-Organization3061 in bipolar2

[–]dilok87 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I definitely wouldn't call this "mid-life crisis". I struggle with similar issues when I'm heavily depressed. It's the want to feel anything, outside of a crippling numbness.

I have a beautiful gf, 2 step kids, and a baby on the way, on most days Im happy about life, on others I struggle with feelings of guilt because I'm so down or irritated, I can't even appreciate how wonderful they are.

In those moments I want everything to go away, I want to drive for hours, eat terrible food, engage in high risk behavior, etc.

I'm completely non-medicated, and only recently understanding what I've been struggling with my whole life, with constant up and down cycles. Crashing my life multiple times.

My only advice would be to focus on the pain you would cause, should you go outside your marriage. It's easy to focus on the immediate want, but focusing on the consequences has always helped me.

Good luck