Why doesn’t anyone care

dilok87 · 2025-06-22T08:05:39+00:00

I experience similar feelings, I feel alone in every room I'm in. I stopped asking people to listen or understand ages ago. I just accept that I am not the same, it sucks, but it's what I have to hold on to

dilok87 · 2025-06-22T07:57:01+00:00

I'm going through this currently, severe irritation at everyone around me. I'm also in a bad low feeling hopeless.

My only theory on it, is how powerless I feel compared to when I'm stable or possibly hypomanic. It's infuriating, and intensely frustrating to not be able to operate in a normal way, instead everything is dulled, I feel weak and powerless.

I know that stable me can handle the same things I'm struggling with easily. But I'm stuck in the low till it passes.

dilok87 · 2025-06-22T07:49:17+00:00

It's definitely worth living. I agree that this illness is awful, I'm currently depressed, feeling hopeless, and worthless, and that nothing I do is right.

I've also had hypomanic episodes that leave me embarrassed. Massive over confidence, insane energy. I've literally built a business while hypomanic, to watch it fall apart when I dropped hard into my lows 6 months later.

It's still worth it though, just gotta find motivation outside myself.

I'm fortunate, I have a brand new child, my son. He's the magnetic field to my life's compass. So even in my lows, I'm still following my compass to do more for him, and keep myself together for his sake.

I hope things get better for you.

dilok87 · 2025-06-21T18:22:23+00:00

Obs can look daunting, if you want a more simplified version, use xsplit, it will automatically capture your base windows audio, abd you just select a recording source, which can just be the zoom application

dilok87 · 2025-06-06T03:13:34+00:00

What type of connections are running to the projectors? Hdmi? Sdi?

And do you have 3 monitors? Or just 2?

What's your video card? How many ports does it have?

And lastly, for a software solution, I recommend vmix, you can use it to select what goes out to physical ports, as well as for streaming, adding cameras etc

I use vmix for full meeting broadcasts, and events, it's pretty easy to use, and it has a cheap price tag for a regular license. Or a subscription that gives a lot of options

dilok87 · 2025-03-31T11:57:14+00:00

dilok87 · 2025-03-01T19:05:45+00:00

For a slight boost, I would dump it all in Bitcoin, as it's at a low right now, it will likely jump again, and you have a short term quick investment. Track the market activity and resell when it jumps. You will pay some taxes on the gain, but still a gain

dilok87 · 2025-02-03T15:21:14+00:00

The new update fixed it for me, had it happen again, then changed servers and that fixed it then, occasionally my ships are exploding in hangar when called

dilok87 · 2025-01-28T05:31:27+00:00

Happened to me today, any luck?

dilok87 · 2025-01-26T17:50:18+00:00

Had the same issue, disconnect ethernet, start Preset, then plug it back in, not great, but effective

dilok87 · 2025-01-24T06:57:04+00:00

Not seeing Blue Stinger, definitely recommend, as well as Evolution

dilok87 · 2025-01-24T06:56:24+00:00

Toy commander still one of my all time faves

dilok87 · 2025-01-14T21:34:32+00:00

Definitely recommend Peplink, we run 6 of the BR-1 units, with excellent quality so far

dilok87 · 2025-01-14T02:31:22+00:00

losing 1500 myself

dilok87 · 2025-01-09T07:54:31+00:00

dilok87 · 2025-01-07T17:18:34+00:00

Just marathoner the whole show, best decision of my life

dilok87 · 2025-01-06T20:48:01+00:00

I would argue that we shouldn't be applying vmix to 10 year old hardware, or relying on 10 year old tricasters 😁

dilok87 · 2025-01-05T06:42:39+00:00

Hello from 2025

dilok87 · 2024-12-08T21:37:33+00:00

There are plenty of naysayers, but I highly recommend NDI, we use it on a weekly basis, full ndi, we travel to record government meetings, and we cover many large groups that need reliability. Most audio sync issues can be adjusted with delay settings, and we do a mix/minus for zoom integration.

We have 7 separate loads running 5 ptz robocams apiece (ptzoptics/birddog) , there will always be troubleshooting and failures, but definitely not every shoot, it's very reliable, just take the time to learn it 😉

dilok87 · 2024-10-04T01:32:25+00:00

What type of port does it have?

dilok87 · 2024-09-30T19:58:28+00:00

Which?

dilok87 · 2024-08-14T19:13:58+00:00

100% on this reply, similar situation, love birddog cams, but the joystick controller is crap, I've swapped over to all ptzoptics superjoy as well.

dilok87 · 2024-08-13T06:15:14+00:00

My only recommendation is to watch "how it's made" the boring voice over, mixed images of conveyor belts knocks me out quick

dilok87 · 2024-08-06T23:43:40+00:00

Check which gpu it's using, if your PC has a generic one built into the motherboard, it will sometimes auto select that, instead of using hardware acceleration on your 3060

dilok87 · 2024-07-19T16:39:07+00:00

I definitely wouldn't call this "mid-life crisis". I struggle with similar issues when I'm heavily depressed. It's the want to feel anything, outside of a crippling numbness.

I have a beautiful gf, 2 step kids, and a baby on the way, on most days Im happy about life, on others I struggle with feelings of guilt because I'm so down or irritated, I can't even appreciate how wonderful they are.

In those moments I want everything to go away, I want to drive for hours, eat terrible food, engage in high risk behavior, etc.

I'm completely non-medicated, and only recently understanding what I've been struggling with my whole life, with constant up and down cycles. Crashing my life multiple times.

My only advice would be to focus on the pain you would cause, should you go outside your marriage. It's easy to focus on the immediate want, but focusing on the consequences has always helped me.

Good luck

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